REGRET

19

JM
the remedy for a broken heart- XXXTENTACION

"Jimin... we gotta talk about what happened yesterday night",Is what Jungkook said.

I remembered what happened...every single detail... but I knew this was it.

I couldn't hide my feelings no more.

"I'm really sorry. I made you drink too much.".Jungkook said.

"We shouldn't have drank in the first place. I hope you aren't mad?",Jungkook kept saying.

"We could just forget about it and move on.",Jungkook said and then looked at me. I was keeping my silence while he was talking.

"Jimin-ah say something.",He said and reached out for me.

I stepped back.

"I like you Jungkook.",I said.

The words came out like if it was already said so many times.

But what terrified me was the look on Jungkook's face. Was it astonishment, confusion, or disgust?

"You're lying Jimin...",He said softly.

"I'm not lying.",I said looking at him.

He looked away and pulled his hair up.

"You're gay?",Jungkook asked.

"Yeah.",I said softly.

"I can't believe it... i've been friends with a gay bastard...",Jungkook said.

"Kookie...",I said reaching out.

"Don't touch me!",Jungkook said slapping my hand away.

"You could like anyone else in this world but you decided to like me?!",Jungkook yelled.

"Jungkookie...",I said reaching out again.

"I said don't fucking touch me! I fucking hate you! I hate what you are!",He yelled.

"Jungkook... I'm sorry...",I said my eyes watering.

"Go away... I don't want to see you here.",Jungkook said looking at me straight in the eyes.

"When I look at you straight in the eyes. It means that I really mean it.",Jungkook said giving me a gift box.

I couldn't hold it back.

I couldn't do it... not now.

But the tears just fell.

"Leave.",Jungkook said.

"J-Jungk-", I said softly.

"Just go.",Jungkook said looking away.

"I know you hate me... but the problem is I love you.

But for you...I'll go.",I whispered.

"I'll go.".I said picking up Dooly and walking out.

I started crying out loud when closing the door. 

I started running my tears blocking my view. I got to the end of the the hall and sat in the corner.

Dooly looked at me and licked my tears.

"s-stop d-dooly...",I said softly and then dug my face in his fur and cried.

Maybe you could hear my cries across the hall but I didn't care. I had no place to go anywhere... I had no one to console me when I was destroyed.

I tried wiping my tears but more came out and it hurt... it hurt.

"I knew... it was a... bad idea...",I whimpered while trying to wipe my tears.

"Jimin...",A voice above me said. I looked up and Yoongi was standing in front of me.

"Hey...",I said trying to wipe my tears.

"What happened?",Yoongi asked sitting beside me.

I shake my head no and caress Dooly's ear.

"Jiminie...",Yoongi whispers and tickles me.

I giggle.

"I'll tell you some other time.",I said and put my head on his shoulder. I suddenly feel better and my tears have finally stopped.

"I need a place to stay...",I whisper.

"You don't like the dorms?",Yoongi asked.

"It's not that.",I said.

"Well you can come live with me and Tae. It's a big house and Tae also needs som cheering up.".Yoongi said.

"Really?",I ask.

"Yeah.",Yoongi says caressing my head.

"Thanks Suga.",I said.

"Only calls me Suga when it's important.",Yoongi says and I chuckle.

"Yoongi... you know... maybe we could run away."