Accepting Love (A Love Story)

Chapter 9

Date: Monday, August 22nd, 2018
Rose's POV:

*Two Days Later*

It was about five-thirty pm and I had just gotten off of work. I shuffle into my apartment after unlocking it. Will had to stay late to organize some paperwork for my next meeting so he would be coming in a little bit later. I step into my room and take a deep breath, I was so damn tired. Ever since my, uh, interesting night with Cameron, I haven't been getting good sleep. It was probably because I wanted to tell him what happened but I guess I didn't have the nerve. I think it was because I didn't want to ruin any friendship that we have developed so far. Luckily I already told all of the boys what happened and how I didn't want Cameron to find out and they respected that.

I think I spent twenty minutes collapsed on my bed before I felt very hungry. Luckily Will had gone shopping for the apartment so I decided to make a box of Mac-N-Cheese as a small dinner until Will gets home but honestly I have no clue what we will have for dinner. Maybe I'll just pick up some fast food? Yeah, thats what I'm going to do since I'm lazy.

I walk into the kitchen and get everything prepped and turn on the stove to let the water boil when I heard my phone go off. I turn down the heat and check. My heart raced a little, it was Cameron. "Shit what do I do?! Does he remember? Fuck" I panic to myself. "Okay calm down Rose. Maybe he just wants to hang out? Oh who am I kidding?! God, okay, okay. Im just gonna open it".

I open the message and feel my heart race. The first sentence was already not a good start,

Fitz-
Hey can we talk about what happened a few days ago?

Oh no. Oh no no no no. Does he remember? Oh shit. Oh fuck. I am literally going to have an anxiety attack, but before I do that, I should probably read the rest of the messages. I take a deep breath a look at them very carefully.

Fitz-
So I think I remember that when we were dancing that we possibly could've kissed? When I asked the guys they said they didn't see anything but I wanted to ask you if you remember anything like that happening?

I begin to panic more. But obviously since I opened it I had to reply. But what do I say? Fuck I wish Will would come home right about now to tell me what to say. I think for a second. "Okay, I'll just tell him that I do remember us kissing, but I just won't tell him anything else".

Me-
Uh yeah. I am pretty sure I remember that as well, but I don't think anything else happened.

I felt myself begin to panic more, but before Cameron could even text me back I ran to the living room, throw my phone on the couch and run back to the kitchen. I was gonna give myself an anxiety attack if I kept that up. So I just go back to cooking the Mac-N-Cheese.

*Ten Minutes Later*

After I had calmed down and put the noodles into the pot, I went back into the living room and looked on the couch and just stared at my phone. I can feel the sweat drip down on my forehead. Then I realize very quickly how over dramatic I am being. "Okay Rose, get your shit together. You are a twenty-two year old lady that shouldn't act like you are in high school anymore. C'mon stop being a little bitch and just talk to him. Its not like you two have feelings for each other or anything". I somehow managed to bully myself into looking at the message.

Fitz-
Oh okay. Thank you. This doesn't make anything awkward right? I mean, its not like it meant anything.

Well, that was anti-climatic. Now I feel stupid for having such a dramatic take on this situation. I mentally face palm myself and reply.

Me-
I don't think it should make anything awkward. Like you said, it didn't mean anything since we were so black out drunk.

Fitz-
Yeah that was what I was thinking. Well, I'm glad this got cleared up.

Me-
haha yeah same.

Fitz-
Well, I need to get some work done. I'll talk you you later?

Me-
Sounds good. Bye Cameron

Fitz-
Bye Rose.

I face plant into the couch which made my spine awkwardly bend, but at this point I literally didn't care because now I have nothing to stress about. I flip over and properly sit on the couch. I sigh in relief, but not a minute goes by when I get another text. I groan and look to see what this person wants. But to my...delight...? It was Matt.

Matt-
Hey! I was wondering if you wanted to come over not next weekend but maybe the weekend after? I mean...if you aren't to busy...

Me-
I'll have to have Will check my schedule. But I'm sure I can make it.

Matt-
Awesome! Well I hope I get to see you.

Me-
I'm sure you will. Are you doing anything Friday night?

Matt-
Umm I'm not to sure. I don't think anything important. Why?

Me-
Well I was wondering if you and the boys wanted to come over for dinner perhaps?

Matt-
I'll ask them. Some of them might not be able to make. It might just be Toby, Mason, Eric, and I. Cuz Jay is visiting family in New Zealand. And Fitz will be leaving back to New Zealand Friday morning. And Ryan and Sam are probably gonna be doing business shit.

Me-
Oh okay! Thats fine. I honestly just wanted the first nice meal to be a big one for a few guests. Cuz cooking just for Will and I really isnt that special lol.

Matt-
Haha yeah. But I'll most likely be there and so will Toby since he wont be streaming. So if anything you'll have three people to cater too.

Me-
Lol that's fine. Hopefully once Will and I buy an actual house we will be able to have more room to have like BBQs and shit. But alright! If you can let me know by at least Wednesday so I know how much to buy and cook.

Matt-
Will do. Thanks for the invite btw.

Me-
Of course. Honestly it's nice to actually have friends to cook for.

Matt-
Cannot relate.

Me-
Lmao. But anyways I need to get some stuff done. I'll talk to you later k?

Matt-
Alright lol. Have fun

Me-
Ill try

I smile. Matt was a really nice person and honestly, I was glad that I met him and the guys. I've honestly never had this many friends before. Sure, me, Cameron, Matt, and sometimes Toby and Mason only talk more frequently than the others but I still consider them my friends. Now to only figure out what to cook...oh shit the pasta!

A/N: We love a dumbass main character right? Also don't worry, Cameron didnt disappear ;). But I hope you enjoyed this chapter!