That One Twin

3

Sayuri

I woke up to the last bell excusing school. *sigh* Time to face the traitors and their taunting. I teleported back to the classroom and to my desk to gather my things.

"Yuri," uncle Zawa spoke up, causing everyone to look at me. "Why'd you skip class?"

"Fell asleep," was all I said as I tossed my things back in my book bag.

"You fell asleep huh? Where?" He continued questioning me. Everyone stayed dead silent.

"On the damn roof. Can you stop interrogating me now?" I spoke roughly.

His eyes widened, as I've never spoken to him like that before. Everyone's jaws went slack as I began my walk to the door. "Shoto, I won't be home til late. Don't wait up for me."

And with that, I was gone before anyone could consider speaking to me. I went straight to my favorite spot I used to visit with my big brother Touya before he disappeared. Dad says he died, but I know that's a lie. I can feel his flame still flickering every time I think about him. Besides Shoto, Touya was the only other person that I let see me weak.

I've never gotten so upset over being teased and called cute, but to have every single one of my friends talking about me like I was a child, it hurt. Sure being cute is good. Being adorable is too. But to be teased for every little action or face I make? It hurts because I want to be taken serious. Yes I'm always happy to see my friends and talk to them, and yes I always joke around with them.

I know I get too comfortable and always touch faces, but it's for my own reassurance. After dad sending mom to the hospital and Touya "dying", I'm scared that one day everyone else would eventually leave. I'm insecure because I blame myself for Touya leaving. I feel like I wasn't a good little sister to him and failed him. He always protected me and Shoto at all costs, even if it meant him taking dads training instead of us.

"Touya, if you can hear me, I miss you... I can't help but blame myself for you leaving. I'm scared that everyone I care about will leave too. And that's caused me to be... touchy? I guess you could say? Because I feel like one day I'll wake up and they'll all be gone like you. I just want them to take me serious though... I don't want to always be seen as cute or adorable with everything I do. It's overwhelming to hear it everyday. I feel like a joke sometimes. I can't get out of my own head Touya... I always do this. I tear myself down for no reason when my friends were only teasing me. They weren't even being mean. I always fuck up. I'm too sensitive. Too negative towards myself. I wish you were still beside me... You always knew what to say to bring me out of this mood..." I cried out to my lost brother.

I sat here. Alone. Upset. Crying. For 3 hours. I ignored my phone buzzing with constant texts and phone calls from who I'm assuming is my friends and family. I don't want them to see me like this. To hear me like this. I'm my own enemy.

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I finally decided to head home. It's after 10 now and hopefully everyone's asleep. I hope Shoto didn't have a panic attack while I was gone... When we're away from each other for so long, we end up having a panic attack. And with the way I left school today, I know he was worried sick.

I slid into our dark room and glanced at his sleeping figure that's lightly shaking. I dressed for bed and climbed into his bed beside him. I hugged him close and felt his body relax.

"I'm sorry Sho..." I whispered and kissed the top of his head. "I shouldn't have worried you..."

A tear fell into his hair and he slowly stirred awake. "Yuri?"

"Hmm?" I hummed, not trusting my voice to give me away.

"Come here," he pulled me to his chest and rubbed my back gently. "Stop crying. You'll make me cry."