Give it to you

Entry Five

April 28, 2019
Today is for me to travel to London to see my favourite band again. I went on their cruise in October and had a blast. Now I am going to their concert the first one in five years. I am going to have a blast even though my friends who came on the cruise can't be here tonight.

What I didn't know I was going to meet someone. And it would change mine and his life.

April 29, 2019
I am on the train going on home writing in this journal. Nobody will believe me the night I had. It all started before the concert when I met a guy who was sitting on his own. He assumed I was his friend called Jon. After chatting for a while we went to have coffee and have a further chat. The guy was called Jay. He had the most gorgeous brown eyes when he finally took his shades. I went to go to the concert but he somehow managed to get me front row tickets and a pass for the meet and greet as well as backstage all because he was a friend of the band. I wasn't to know there was more to it. Here in the middle of the room backstage, he tells me who he really is. I doubting all of this even with the sparks when I helped him up and at the coffee place. But here I see the pop star standing there in front of me. He looked like he wanted to kiss me but was scared to make the move. He did once they were singing Kiss the girl. Soon our lips met, boy his lips feel good. It wasn't just a friendly kiss either. He smells so good and tastes just as good. I still can feel those lips on mine now. Suddenly I realise who he is and left him there in the middle of the room with his friends looking depressed and embarrassed. I was so scared and shocked that I did that I panicked run out of there. I had to get away from it all. That wasn't me kissing a married man I didn't believe him when he said he wasn't married anymore.

I still have all those voice messages and text messages from last night. I have his number in my phone. His personal one. The fangirl in me has just fainted and collapsed in a heap. Here I am writing this on the train smiling like a mad man as my clothes still smell of him. I can still feel his touches. Well anyway, where was I? Oh I had just run off. I tell you what I didn't go far I found myself back where the bars and restaurants were. My phone exploded with texts, messages and wouldn't stop ringing. Now it's getting annoying because I am getting looks from everyone walking past me.

Now two guys are standing there next to me as I'm crying. Now totally embarrassed. The guy in the hat was talking to me as if I'm a friend. Soon as I look up when he gives me my phone back, it's Donnie. I get a big from him because I stopped Jordan from running away from the show tonight. I didn't do anything. I go to leave because nothing can happen it won't happen. He is him and I am just me. Nothing special. Donnie does plead with me to stay and come back with him. Now the crowd is getting bigger. Then I hear him before I see him. Suddenly he is there standing in front of me. What's he thinking that I'm just going to forget who he is? He wasn't Jay who was drinking coffee with me but really he was Jordan along. Jordan fucking knight. But I couldn't tell he had his hat down so low. He kissed me again. This is a dream I told myself. This isn't really happening. I still feel like it's not real. Even when I woke up this morning in his hotel room actually in his bed with him sleeping next to me.

I still remember those tears in his eyes and the words that came out of his mouth about him struggling the last two years last night. I don't know what we are since last night. Are we friends or are we more? All I do know he wants to see me again. He has a ticket for me for Manchester. I will get to see him in 3 days. I will get more JK kisses then. I miss him already. I have new friends on the block.

What I didn't know was I was going to be a very important part of his life in months to come.