Love Letters 2

Letter #24

Dear Matthew,

When I lost you, I lost my light. It was all as though someone had blown out my inner candle.

I didn't even try to hide it at first. No regrets there.

Why the hell would I pretend to be happy when I'd just lost the thing that mattered most to me?

It wasn't going to pretend, not for anybody.

I was sad. Then... then, I was mad. So I faked it, for everybody. If I let myself go down, I was letting you win.

But I didn't fake it for me.

I still fell asleep every night with the blanket you'd given me for Christmas snuggled to my chest.