💞A World Bursting To Color and Warmth💞

💞you're to good for this world💞

(Trigger Warning: Angel goes through Withdrawl and has a seizure.)

*Alastor*

    Angel had recently started making major changes in his life. He began by quitting his addiction to PCP. It has… a couple days or so of watching him go through withdrawal, but he never gave up. Today he was going through another day of pain and anxiety. Angel´s blindness didn´t help with the anxiety. I walked to his room to check on him as Charlie had asked. I knocked and heard a strained response. I walked in to see Angel shivering under a blanket, trying to stay calm. He had made it far, and he hated every second of it. Yet he still managed to smile when his vision cleared and he saw me. Always so kind no matter how he was treated… I sat on his bed. I simply gave him my hand and he held it, seeming to take in the colors around him. He always had a look of wonder when he got a chance to see the world again. It was the one thing that got him through this.

¨C-Can y-you h-hug me?...¨ I looked to him. He looked detached a bit, and seemed to just need a friend. Even if I don´t like being touched, he needed someone here. Poor thing just wanted a simple hug. I open my arms and he hugged me, immediately halting my much smaller shivers. His symptoms seemed to lessen, but after a second he laid down.

¨Thanks.¨ I realized… he used me just for pain relief. I felt… in all honestly a bit upset. Angel still held onto my hand adamantly. I didn´t mind, but to use me for a couple seconds wasn´t fair! Angel seemed to almost read my mind. ¨We´re just friends.... So we don´t need to hug for so long.¨ I realized I had… really hurt him. ¨I have to get through this… or I´m going to never change. I need to start somewhere.¨ I nodded, but he seemed to start staring blankly at the wall, and loosen their grip on my hand.

¨Angel?¨ He didn´t respond, and started making odd sounds, then his muscles began contracting. I turned Angel on their side as their seizure ensued. ¨Charlie! Vaggie! Help!¨ Angel continued moving and I looked away in pure discomfort. To see his body contort like that… was sickening. No one responded to my calls for help. I could only think of one thing. I hugged Angel close to me. ¨I´m sorry ok! I don´t hate you! I care about you! Please be ok Angel! For anyone, at least me!¨ I felt him continue to move, but eventually calmed. I looked to him, and he breathed heavily.

¨Cold...¨ I immediately put a blanket over him. He held onto my hand. I smiled to him, and he responded with a smile as well. ¨S-Sorry about that.¨

¨For what?¨ Angel looked at the wall, a bit lost in thought.

¨For scaring ya.¨ I was a bit shocked as he spoke. He didn´t need to apologize to me, but he still felt bad that he even startled me in the slightest. I hugged Angel. He was to kind. Such a sweet person… 

¨You are to good for this world.¨ Angel hugged me as well, but he started moving abruptly.

¨Oh god it hurts!¨ Angel clung to me as his body shook and his muscles spazzed out of control. ¨Alastor it hurts!¨ I panicked and just hugged him tighter. ¨I´m dying! This hurts! Get me the damn drugs please!¨ I shook my head and hugged him tighter. ¨Shut up! Let me just do it once so this can be over!” Angel cried into my shoulder. I kept holding him close.

¨I´m sorry. I am so sorry.¨ He cussed at me and said things he didn´t mean… but everytime immediately apologized and cried in pain. Even in his pain and moments of agony, he still remained kind, and that was what made me stay and hold him close. Charlie and Vaggie had probably gone out to the store, so I was probably the only person who could help him. ¨It feels like I am dying! Alastor help please! Just once please!¨ I shook my head and he just cried in pain. Eventually Angel calmed down and fell asleep in my arms. I laid Angel in their bed and covered them up. He curled into an adorable ball, and slept peacefully. I stayed in the room with him. I didn’t want him to wake up to a world of darkness. He was to kind to deserve that… I heard the door open to see Vaggie. She sat next to me.

“He ok?” I nodded and smiled a bit. Angel had fallen asleep holding my hand. “I hope this is over soon because he already lost his job. I kinda wanna get him a job in the hotel so he can be in a positive environment that will support him.” I nodded in response. Angel was trying to turn his life around, and everyone in this hotel was going to help him. He was determined and so were we. Vaggie was his biggest cheerleader. She was teaching Angel how to get around with a cane and had gotten Angel’s pig a trainfer so he could help Angel walk. She wanted Angel to succeed in his goals. Vaggie was successful in all her endeavors, but there was only 1 thing Angel wanted to do. He wanted to be the hotel’s head chef, and Charlie was totally for it, but he couldn’t see… so they’re still debating on it. Angel wanted to be the chef, so he took any chance he could to better himself. Vaggie and I left to discuss somethings with Charlie. We went to her office, and she waved with a small smile.

“Guys… we need to talk about Angel’s goals. They… don’t seem reasonable. If he can’t see, he’d make a lot of mistakes in the kitchen.” Vaggie gasped as Charlie spoke.

“He can do it! He has made so much progress for this job, we can’t take that chance away from him! Charlie you can’t do this! Please!” Vaggie had fear and worry written in her eyes as she protested.

“Vaggie, the hotel already needs a boost in its reputation. Bad food could put us at a huge risk of losing clients we only just got! We have to consider the hotel as well! Angel can do another job!” She was stern as she spoke, but gentle in her words. Vaggie seemed to be enraged by the words.

“Charlie, he has been wanting this job, and it is his only goal right now! You cannot take it from him! Please, I’m begging you!” I looked at Vaggie as she seemed to begin crying. “You can’t let him lose something he wants so desperately. Charlie sighed.

“Vaggie, I want him as our head chef, but we have to consider our options. Between him, and say Alastor, who can cook and see, Alastor is our better option.” I was shocked to be pulled into this. “Alastor we could use someone with your expertise, would you like the job?” I was uncomfortable as I felt Vaggie glare at me.

“Charlie you can’t do this! What about Angel!? He has worked to hard!” She cried tears for Angel… and even when hope was lost, kept rooting for him.

“Vaggie! What about the hotel and everything we have done?! We need to do what is best in the hotel’s interest!” I put my hand up to silence the two girls.

“I will not take the job. Angel has worked to hard for this. He deserves it out of everyone. To make it possible, I’ll be his assisting chef so he can see. I am only there to aid him in his sight. Charlie was shocked and smiled.

“That works!” Vaggie and her hugged. “No one has to be sad!”

“Angel made it to his goal! I’m so proud of him!” I smiled and left the two girls to celebrate. I went to Angel’s room to find him feeling around the bed. I sat and he looked in my direction as the bed sank. He laid his head in my lap and fell asleep again. Poor thing must have been tired. He was so kind… so determined… and absolutely loving. Even after I broke is heart… he took my friendship and cried in silence for my happiness.

“You really are to good for this world my dear.” I ran my fingers through his hair. I was going to help him succeed, but only because he was my friend. I care about him of course, and wanted to see him smile.