Dear Shania

Chapter 2.

Shaquan

Childish.That is what I thought when she shouted at me.That is all.I guess iam used to them.Campus girls can be so annoying at times but I knew how to stay in my lane

I strode over to my car and opened it.I sat on the driver's seat my feet still hanging outside.

"Hey dawg,drop me off iam done with my classes for the day."Julius shouted from the other side of the parking lot.I don't like being shouted at.

"You broke your legs?" I shouted back."No!"it was a scream this time.God it pissed me off."Then iam not dropping you."He smirked and I knew he would pay back but I reversed and zoomed off anyway.

I can't say he is my best friend.I don't do bestfriends.Never.He is just the guy who gets me more than anyone else.More than my own mother.But again, thinking about it, what does he understand when he knows nothing yet?

I lived alone with her.With my daughter.The only person I had in this life.Nobody knew I had her.Not even Julius.I cherished her in all the possible ways.She was my weakness.I hid her so well from the world but I couldn't hide her from nature's ruthlessness.

Looking at her sleeping on the couch,fear gripped me.She was sweating so profusely that her clothes soaked and clinged on her frail figure.She looked like she was struggling to breath.That monster was announcing its presence. Proudly like Iam here.What will you do?

She is the reason I took part time pathology classes.I want to understand.I want to be able to save someone from their struggles.If I lose her I will be alone.With no one and that is my greatest fear.I sat beside her and took her hand in mine.Her pulse was so weak it broke my heart

Her long soft curls fell carelessly on her face.Damn she is such a pretty child.Her small face looked so peaceful and by the way she is always the strongest woman I know.Her long eyelashes slapped on her cheeks slightly as she subconsciously held onto my hand and opened her round deep brown eyes.

Carlita is my sister's daughter.My twin sister.She is no more though and it's my fault.Everything is.Carlita is not her real name though it's a nickname and she hated it.Her name is Nadia.

She smiled tiredly and reached out to wipe something from my face."Papi,are you sad?"she asked looking me straight into the eye.I smiled and shook my head.I really love the way she called me papi.It's the best thing I ever heard.

The day she came into my life is the day I realized my purpose in life is to love and protect her.My life may not be a fairy tale but my daughter is my princess.I just hoped that when faced with life's twists and turns,she will remember whose daughter she is and straighten her crown.

"No love papi is fine,"I said placing her on my lap."I was just missing my love."She smiled so sweetly and lay on my chest."Papi can we go for a walk tonight again?"she asked making a cute face and of course I couldn't say no.

We went for walks at night.When the only sounds that could be heard were those of the wind moving stealthily among the trees making a howling sound.Because I was afraid.Afraid that he will find her and take her away.Just like he did with everyone I ever held close to the heart.

I was born in a family of three children.My twin sister and I were the firstborns then there was our little brother.I never liked my dad since time immemorial.My mum. I loved that woman with all of me.Well I still do but sadly she didn't feel the same way about her own son.

All I had left of them all were memories.Memories that made me sad not because they were all bad memories but because some of them were so good and I couldn't bring them back even if I wanted to.I should not have taken them for granted.My life is one big mess.

I put Carlita gently on the couch and walked to the kitchen.My stomach was grumbling and I knew I had to eat something or die.I knew my daughter was hungry too because she never ate when I wasn't around and we had no househelp for the same reason.I was afraid to leave her with anyone else.

Sometimes I felt bad because leaving a three year old alone in the house when I went to school was somehow not a very good idea.I did not go to school very much though I only had two classes per week.

I placed some of her nature's path sunrise crunchy honey cereal into a bowl and added some milk into it.Lots of milk. Carlita loved it that way.I love milk too so she got that from her papi.Carrying her cereal and my glass of milk in either hands, I walked back to the living room and placed her on my lap again."Time to eat,"I said cheerfully

From the first time I held her in my arms,I knew that I had to always protect her.She may blame me for being overprotective one day but for me her safety is all that matters.I would rather die than have what happened to everyone else happen to her.

To anyone reading this book: words cannot tell you how much iam grateful I love you so much and thanks for your support ❤️

This is my initial draft of the book and it hasn't been proofread so bear with me I will go through the book after I finish writing

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