Euphoria

Time to go home

soon enough, Tae-Hee comes in with 2 bags of hand warmers.
TH: the drinks are in the car, I couldn't carry it all.
Y/n: its fine. Let's go outside.
Jk: I'll take these. Mr Bang will probably want something from you anyway.
TH: speaking of, got to go. Have a good day.
Jk: you too.
Y/n: bye.
We go outside and open the boot of the van we came in. We hand out hot drinks to the press first. Then I open the bag of hand warmers and hand them out to the fans.
Y/n: make sure to stay warm.
Fan: thank you y/n.
Fan: you should stay warm too.
Y/n: wrap up guys. Its going to get really cold soon.
After we hand out all the goods. We wave goodbye and get into the van. Henry lays by my feet and Jungkook pulls me into him. I rest my head on his chest and listen to his heart beating. Its so peaceful.
Jk:so we have some time off, what should we do first?
Y/n: I don't know. Can we visit our families. I want to go home to my family for a while. I think I'm homesick.
Jk: ok, good start. But why are you homesick babe?
Y/n: I don't know, I just miss Australia. I miss my hometown, my old friends, my old schools. Can we go see my old school Please? I want to see my teachers again. Oh and I heard my old bully is a teacher there. I should rub it in her face that I got famous and that...
Jk: woah, calm down. We can go to your school, yes but don't rub it in. Your better than that.
Y/n: i guess but I would like to rub it in abit.
I hear Kai chuckle.
Y/n: see, Kai agrees?
Jk: hey, who's side are you on?
Kai: no ones. Its just funny.
Y/n: fair enough. Anyway I have nothing to rub in, I may have great fans and an amazing family but I'm depressed. That's not something to be proud of.
Jk: well no but it's a step in the right direction. And plus she might be going through something so don't rub it in and make her feel worse.
Y/n: ok. Can we take Jun and Mi-young to an Australian zoo please. They can see koalas, kangaroos and other animals. Please.
Jk: ok. After Australia, can we dump the kids with the boys and go somewhere just us two please.
Y/n: ok. Where to?
Jk: I'll plan the trip, don't worry about it.
Y/n: fine.
We arrive home and i instantly go into Mi-young's room and sit in the rocking chair watching her sleep. She looks so peaceful. Will she even recognise me? I see Jungkook walk in and sit down next to me. He puts his hand on my hands.
Jk: you ok?
Y/n: yea. She looks so peaceful.
Jk: yea? Why don't you hold her?
Y/n: i can't.
Jk: why not?
Y/n: I might drop her.
Jk: what? Hahahahha you held Junnie when he was a baby. You never dropped him. Why are you afraid of dropping her?
Y/n: i don't know. Its just, shes much smaller than Junnie. She's like 6 months old and she is still tiny. Its like she doesn't grow.
Jk: she probably misses you. I read that if a baby misses their mother's warmth, the don't grow much. Maybe holding her will comfort her. To be honest she hasn't slept much since you went into hospital.
Y/n: can you bring her? I might drop her on the way here.
Jk: ha fine.
He gets up and walks over to her crib, picks her up and brings her to me. He places her in my arms and I hold her while smiling at her pretty face. I begin to tear up. I understand how Jungkook felt when he found out Junnie was his child.
Jk:you ok?
Y/n:yea. I'm fine. I'll be fine. Is it bad to feel as if she isn't my child. I feel like I've missed all of her life.
Jk: hey, you haven't missed her life, her life is only just beginning. I know it feels weird now but you'll get used to it again. I know you will.
He kisses me, kisses mi-young's head and goes to walk out.
Y/n: where are you going?
Jk: are we speaking English now? I'm going to the genius lab, I need to speak to Suga. I'll be back in a minute.
Y/n: please don't go. I don't wanna be in a room alone with mi-young. I might drop her.
Jk: ok I'll call Margo to stay with you. MARGO!
MARGO:YES!
JK: CAN YOU STAY HERE WITH Y/N FOR A MINUTE PLEASE.
Margo:Of course.
Jk: thanks.
Jungkook leaves and Margo comes in and sits down.
Margo: you ok?
Y/n: I'm fine, just don't wanna be alone Incase I drop her.
Margo: your not going to drop her. She's your child, your mothering instinct will kick in soon, then you'll almost be back to yourself again. One step at a time.
*JUNGKOOKS POV*
I walk downtown he stairs and go the the Genius Lab. I knock and hear a faint 'come in', I open the door and see Suga on his computer working on some stuff.
Jk: hi?
Sg: Hi Jungkook, can i help you with anything?
Jk: yea, I'm worried about y/n. She didn't want to be alone with Mi-young because she's scared she might drop her.
Sg: oh yea. That's normal. When we were kids, i came to visit when she was 10 and at that time Lucy was just a baby; y/n picked her up wanting to play dress up with her. She dropped her and she started bleeding. She's had a fear of holding children ever since. Around 3 1/2 years ago, do you remember when I went home to see my family, I actually went to Australia and spent a month there to help her look after him. She was really panicking back then. When mi-young was born, she was still scared but didn't want to worry you so she mustered up the courage to hold her. I wouldn't be too concerned, she just needs a little push, but by a little I mean encourage her to hold her like a few times every day and gradually go up to making her hold her for most of the day. Also get her to feed her when she needs feeding, and then in like a few weeks, leave her in the room with Mi-young alone. She'll be fine.
Jk: Thanks Suga.
Sg: is she not alone now then?
Jk: no she wouldn't let me leave so Margo went to sit with her.
Sg: fair enough. She just needs to get used to being a mum again, it's been ages since she has felt like a mother, you know? When she was in hospital she told me she doesn't even remember Mi-young's birth so she feels out of place, as if she only has one child.
Jk: really?
Sg: you didn't know?
Jk: no.
Sg: well it's probably best you know? So what was the meeting with BangPD?
Jk: he gave us some time of, so y/n can recover better and so that we can have some family time.
Sg: fair enough. The rest of us also have time off. What are guys doing?
Jk: we're going to Australia and going to stay there for a few months. She was so excited to make a list of things to do. She wrote go to the zoo seven times.
Sg: she loves the zoo. She always has. I don't know if her favourite animal is still the same. She used to love the...
Both: Koala.
Sg: I'm guessing it hasn't changed then?
Jk: nope.