He's Just A One Night Stand And Then Some More

Coming Clean

Shampoo - Check!

Feminine Pads - Check!

Soap - Check!

Banana - Check!

Milk - Check!

Popcorn -----

Yep Popcorn.. Popcorn.. popcorn, where are you.. Oh there! when suddenly, boogsh! I bumped my cart into someone else's cart. Shit!

kaninong cart pa nga ba? It was Mico's.. and he was with his makating.. malanding... basta.. girlfriend kasi.. girlfriend.. bakit ba hindi mo masabing "girlfriend"... tapos ka na sa denial diba?? depression ka na nga eh..

*STAGES OF MOVING ON (DABDA)

1.) DENIAL- no... nagjojoke lang yun.. di naman talaga kami nagbreak..

2.) ANGER- ang kapal ng mukha niya.. idiotic son of a bitch!!

3.) BARGAINING- come back to me please.. i'll change.. i'll be more sensitive of your needs. i'll find more time for you, for us... just come back to me please..

4.) DEPRESSION- he left me. he left me. he left me. kill me now.

5.) ACCEPTANCE- that's life. some things are just not meant to be.

"Sophie." he said.

shit! ano bang itsura ko?? Shorts, Flops, hoodie, messy bun, no makeup, bushy brows!! ARGHHH!! thank god walang pimples.. of all days pa bakit kasi ngayon???? shit! I didnt spray any perfume, kahit cologne.. I went through the meat and fish section pa naman.. kumapit na ba ang amoy sakin??? wahh no... hindi.. mabango ako.. mabango.. kalma lang.. stay calm.. you look decent..

"Mico." I said. Not sure what else to say..

"Kamusta ka na?" he said after giving me an awkwatd smile. He hated small talks. We both do. Awkward.

Eto, wasak pa rin. A little shocked because I did not expect you to be here on a Saturday afternoon. Didn't we do our grocery shoppings on Saturday mornings? I changed my schedule na nga just to avoid seeing you tapos andito ka naman.. at kasama mo pa talaga siya.. Nakuha mo pa talagang iparada siya sa hallway natin. Not literally of course.. but this was our place... our hallway... This was where we first met.. at this very spot.. This was where we planned our very first date.. and the dates after.. Shopping for groceries was a part of our quality time.. satin toh eh.. so why were you doing it with someone else? Nakalimutan mo na ba? This was where we planned our wedding, the names of our kids, heck even our grandkids. How could you?!

Pero siyempre hindi ko sinabi. I still have my pride and ego to feed, whatever left of them.

"Im fine. Just doing groceries. You?" I asked just for the sake of being civil.

That was when he looked at my cart. Five cartons of milk and a box of microwavable butter popcorn on my hand. Shit! huli.. he knew me enough to know that popcorns with milk are my comfort food and I eat them everytime I feel sad and depressed..

"Kami rin. Sige, we'll go ahead. Ingat sa pagtulak ng cart." He said. Thank the heavens he did not ask about the pop corns.. umalis na sila, hindi man lang hinintay ang response ko. shit. naiwan na naman ako. leche ka madapa ka sana. kayo! madapa sana kayo leche kayo.

I paid for my stuff and walked out of the store. Tulala. Hindi ko nga alam kung nakuha ko ba yung sukli ko. I was replaying the scene in my head. Ako, siya, the makati with her hands wrapped around his arms. Shit! Ako dapat yun eh. Ang sakit sakit pa rin. Talaga universe? masaya ka ba sa ginagawa mo sakin? Sophie stop it please! tapos ka na rin sa anger.. depression ka na nga diba?! and dont you dare cry here, baka nandito pa rin sila sa parking lot. Dont let them see, you owe it to yourself. I put on my hood and walk/run to my car.