I Liked You As Soon As I Hated You (Yejisu)

Chapter 19

There was a knock on the door and Jisu immediately went out of her room. She doesn't know why but her body instantly moved on it's own when she heard the knocking.

It's as if she's been expecting someone to come. More specifically, Yeji. Her mind wasn't at ease with the fact that Yeji can't talk to her. That Yeji isn't ready to face her.

But she knew that the girl was devastated. So, when she heard the knocking, the only person she expected it to be is Yeji and no one else.

As she stood in front of the door, she has her arms crossed. Hesitant wether this is real or not. If it really is Yeji or some random stranger knocking on their condominium.

She reached her hand out and turned the knob before slowly pulling it open. And there she was greeted by Yeji, standing in front of her.

Looking like she ran to get here. Like she immediately went here as soon as possible and Jisu didn't know what to feel about that.

Jisu instantly pulls Yeji into a hug as the girl hugs her back tight. Though, she was in Yeji's arms, it didn't feel the same.

The familiar warmth that Jisu always felt wasn't there and she wasn't comfortable. It was all so different.

And that was when the floor started to break apart and Yeji started to fade. Jisu begins to cry because everything was falling apart and she didn't know what to do.

Yeji was fading yet she was still in her arms but she's still fading. Jisu is scared, so damn scared that she hugged Yeji tighter.

And that was when she woke up. She was drenched in sweat and her eyes were filled with tears. She quickly sat up, letting out a sob. It was too early for her to be awake.

2am.

She should still be asleep but her dream made her realize that Yeji..

Yeji may be leaving her life for good.

That she's going to lose a Hwang Yeji in her life and it didn't sit right with her. She hates that thought, she didn't want it. She hated dreaming about Yeji fading.

She was holding on yet she was fading. Could it be... that Yeji was slowly getting tired and losing hope? No.. that can't be.

Jisu doesn't want that. Jisu doesn't want her to feel tired. Jisu doesn't want her to fade.

She slowly and finally lets herself cry. Not even stopping herself from feeling so sad as she curl into a ball. She couldn't help but think, is this what Yeji felt like when they tried to fool themselves and think that they don't know each other.

Is this what Yeji did when she felt this? Cry and feel the guilt devouring her as she cries into the night.

Because if this is what she felt, Jisu feels even more bad. Because this is the worst feeling that a person could feel in the entire world. Jisu just wants everything to be alright.

But hell, she lived for a few more months before going to college yet she felt like everything was alright when it wasn't. Because Yeji was suffering during those times.

Jisu cries into her pillow even more. She wonders what Yeji is feeling right now. Is she alright? Is she sleeping well? Is she in a safe place?

It's a shame that she'll never know. She felt so angry at herself for doing such a thing. For making Yeji go through a lot and still treat her like shit in college.

She should've known better. She shouldn't have listened to Soobin. Now, Jisu knew that maybe Soobin didn't even know what he was saying back then, yet Jisu fell for it.