I Liked You As Soon As I Hated You (Yejisu)

Chapter 34

It's been days. Seconds, minutes and hours have gone by, and yet, Jisu hasn't told Yeji about the news that her mom dropped on her like an unexpected bomb.

It was hard, pretending to be happy and excited whenever her mother brought up their family reunion for next month. She would be smiling so hard, but her heart would be slowly breaking into small pieces while doing so.

Of course, her parents wouldn't know that. Her dad was so happy though, so happy that he couldn't stop smiling whenever Jisu joins in on the conversation. Saying that she's so excited about it.

Jisu couldn't imagine the disappointed look that will be plastered on her father's face if she told them she didn't want to stay. If she told them that she's far from being happy and exited about their family reunion.

How could she be selfish for once when she saw the happy expressions plastered on both her parent's face? It was too hard for her.

What was even harder was telling Yeji the truth. What can she even say?? That Yeji needs to stop waiting? No, that wouldn't make sense, they're already together after all.

The last thing Jisu wanted to happen was for them to break up of course. It hasn't even been that long since they became official. Jisu wasn't even able to introduce Yeji to her parents yet.

She doubts that they'll break up soon. Jisu will find a way of course. She believes that their relationship will not just end like that.

Just because she's not coming back anymore doesn't mean they'll have to break up.. right..?

Jisu groans, falling back down on her bed as she looks up at her ceiling. Too much.

It was all too much for her. She can't control anyone's feelings, she can't get them to agree to her. Why is life being such a bitch to her now when all she wants to do is go home and be happy with Yeji.

There was a ton of things she should be doing right now to get things to turn in the path that she wanted, but it was all too impossible.

She could talk to her parents about this, but she knows that her father will be so disappointed. She just knows he will.

She doesn't know about her mother though, her mom's always been supportive with her decisions in life, but with things that includes her love life.. she's not quite sure if her mother will react positively towards it.

In the middle of diving into her messy thoughts, she hears her phone ring and felt it vibrate uncontrollably beside her on the bed.

Whoever was calling her probably woke up early, that is if they're calling from South Korea. Jisu, without a single energy left in her body, didn't care enough to move and answer it.

She wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone. If the person calling her was about to tell her something important then that would be Jisu's fault for not answering it and honestly, Jisu doesn't care.

But she knew she'd regret that soon.

When her phone stopped ringing loudly and vibrating, she thought she'd finally escaped whoever was calling her. It was silent again and the only thing that was loud was her thoughts.

Thinking and thinking and thinking but all her thinking leads to nothing. She always hits a dead end and would end up thinking that she wouldn't be able to tell Yeji anymore.

She's too scared. She's so scared that Yeji might give up on her, but she also thinks that she has to let Yeji know ASAP.

But she isn't brave enough. Brave enough to tell Yeji and make her feel sad. It's as if her leaving wasn't bad enough for both of their relationship.