Never have I ever Bevi Fanfiction. COMPLETED-

Chapter four- Had to keep a secret

Ben POV
I woke up and looked at my bandages hand.. Memwories of Friday flooded in my mind and I walked to my bathroom and changed my bandages.
You should let them drip Ben..
I brushed the devil of and changed into a grey jumper and jeans.
I couldn't help but look at myself in the mirro and completely roast myself.
Your outfits dumb.. Devi should just get with Paxton..
I just sighed and began walking to the kitchen.
Mum was takin her medicine and Patty was cooking breakfast.
I watched as my mum put the pills up in the cobard but she put in a pin and it locked.
I sighed.
My luck..
It's fine Ben just cut yourself to death..
I tried not to let the devil take over me so I sat down and decided to have a nice breakfast.
"Oh Ben what's happened to your hand?!", My mum said and I chuckled nervously.
"Oh ms gross you know what boys are like at his age.."
"Haha Yeah....", I nervously said and just began eating my breakfast.
You shouldn't tell them..
I let out a small sigh and pushed my half eaten breakfast away.
"I'm going to school now.. I'll drive.", I said and tried to muster a fake smile.
"Ok my star.", My mum said an sit made me become riddled with guilt.
I soon forgot about that because ya know Paxtons back in school..
I walked in school and Devi ran up to me and hugged me.
I gritted my teeth and let go first.
"Hey Ben.. What's up?", She asked and I looked at her eyes and became filled with feelings from friday that and guilt because of the cuts.
"Nothing I'm f-", she pressed her lips to mine and pulled of.
"Cool come on let's hang out before lessons start.", She chuckled and I looked at her and nodded.
We walked over to her friends and I just looked down and didn't listen to what they where saying.
"Ben? Can we talk?", I turned to see Trent talking to me.
"Oh yeah what's up?", I said a bit skeptic.
"Paxtons said he's sorry dude about everything he um.. He realised just how wrong he was acting and I'm sorry about what he did too you. He said he'll leave you all alone and um he's moving school.", He said and I stared at him confused.
No.. Who's gonna beat me up now?
He looked at my confused face with a confused face.
"I'll take that as a yes I'm cool with him but I still hate him face?"
I just nodded and tried not to fall over.
Paxtons moving.. No.. I should be glad right?
Yeah I should but I'm not.
Why now? Couldn't he beat me up a bit more.
I sigh and walk back over to Devi and that.
"What he want?", She snapped and I told her.
"Paxtons moving do you know how happy I am!!", Devi shouted and I stared at her smile and frowned.
Since when was I like that I can't even temper anymore.
"Ben you cool man?"
"Huh? Oh yeah totally I'm gonna go to class I'll see you there!"
"But wait it doesn't start till teb miniutes!"
I block her vioce and and walk to class.
My arm was aching from this morning and I had put gloves on so nobody could ask about my hand.
I look around the class to see if anybody else is in here.
Just me.
I pull my sleeve up and unwrap the bandges. I reapply some new ones and put the old in the bottom of my bag.
"Right class lets began.", I look up and see everyone else is ok class I must've zoned out.
"I'm sad to say Paxton is leaving at the end of the week and he's not coming in school.", He said and I just rest my hand in my arms.
I can't believe I nearly went all the way with Devi..
I don't deserve her love..
She shouldn't love someone like me anyway..
Dads dead and so should I be to.
I exhaled and the lesson soon finished I hadn't paid much attention to it but I don't really care.
"Ben!", Devi Freud to grab my attention but I ignore her and walk into the bathroom.
I sit in the still and they to collect my thoughts together.
Paxtons moving.. Who's gonna beat you up now? Why are you thinking like this? Since when did you become such a burden?
I hadn't even realised I had been sobbing but I wiped my eyes and stared at the scabs on my arm..
A few more wouldn't hurt anyone Ben..
I sighed and rested my head in my hands waiting for the next class to begin..

Devi's POV
Bens never ignored me before.. He just walked away like he didn't hear me.. Fabs said he's been in like some trance in lessons.. And my only guesss is he's embarrassed about what happened last Friday.. When I tried to give him a hand job..
I blush at the thought and decide to wait by the door for him to exit.
"Oh hey Devi."
I turn to see Trent exiting the toilets I wave and he stops and half smiles.
"That Ben dude sure is weird today.. Jist like spaced out if you get what I mean.. Like my grandma..", He trialed of and I stare at him with a frown.
"Um.. Cool I'm actually waiting for that "Ben dude".", I said making bend nickname sound like a surfer dude accent.
Trent laughs and scuffs my hair much to me pushing him of.
"Oh and Devi.. Ben's been crying in there like a little-"
"He's what?!"
Trent seems to take a second to process what he said.
"Pfttt Yeah I'm not lying he's being really annoying actually."
I scoff and cross my arms.
"Can you get him out?", I asked and Trent stared at me and blinks.
"Why can't you?"
I scoff again and roll my eyes.
"I'm a girl Trent."
He laughs and scruffs my hair again he goes in there and exits but no Ben.
He shrugs and walks of I rolled my eyes and stood by the door.
The bell rang and Ben still hasn't left..
I just sighed and tapped my door watching as other poeple walked to class.
Goddamitt Ben just Leave the toilet already!
I tapped my foot on the floor hard and sighed before walking to class.
I got a glimpse of Ben and he looked at me with so much guilt..
The end of the day rolled around and I was really worried about my boyfriend Ben..
I speed walked to him when he was leaving and grabbed his arm.
He hissed through his teeth at where I grabbed him and I looked at him confused.
"Ben?! Why have you not well been talking to me?! I've tried to talk to you all day! What's wrong why aren't you talking to me?! You promised no secrets?!"
He stared at me his eyes drained of life..
His lips trembled as I shouted and he pulled his arm of and pulled his hood up.
"I got therapy.. I'm sorry I haven't talked to you all day..", He said and I looked at him and kissed his cheek.
"Text when you get back ok?"
He nods and I stare at his arm and frown.
Maybe he hasn't fully healed from the beating that and he seemed more down than usual today..
He hasn't been harming himself right? No.. That's a stupid theory we did stuff Friday and called each other Saturday and Sunday.
I pinch the bridge of my nose and wait for my mum to pick me up..
Ben.. You promised you'd tell me if you were feeling down again..