Never have I ever Bevi Fanfiction. COMPLETED-

Chapter 7- Love hurts

Ben POV
I wake up again for school and I don't wanna go.. I don't because Devi will be there and I still love her..
I walked downstairs to find I'm alone and the first person awake..
I see the pill cabinet and I'm tempted to eat loads of my druggie mums pills and die..
I mentally slap myself and I go to the knife draw and grabbed a small knife that no one would know would be gone..
I smiled at it and even kissed it.
I grab my water bottle and go into the alcohol shelf.
I spot some vodka and I put it in there instead of water.
I smiled and got changed into a black jumper with jeans and black shoes.
I take a sip form my bottle and out on some house beats in my stereo.
I'm dancing to it and I make my way to school.
I gotta act completely fine.
I put my gloves on and high five some People actually feeling good for a bit.
I then see Devi looking pretty as ever.
"Hey enemy.", I said as I saw her she stared at me and frowned.
"Enemy?"
"Ya I can't be your friend and pretend everything's fine.. I'm sorry but your my enemy again!", I was mentally hurting myself as I spilled theses lies from my mouth.
Devi seemed to believe me and she nodded tears spilling from her eyes.
I stared at her and felt guilt ready to spill.
I block out everyone's voices and I walk to the toilet and sit on the toilet drinking my "water".
I let it wash the pain away..
"Lovely..", I smiled and took the knife from my bag and slit my right wrists deep.
"Ahh.. SO GoOD!", I laughed and bandaged it up.
I slipped the knife in my bag and decide to save a bit of "water" for later.

Two more days passed and I've cut both my wrists in an attempt to die.. I keep waking up though and it infuriating..
I put on a black leather jacket and black make up on around me eyes..
I bearly  even make it to lessons, my head banging loudly. Because of my lovely breakfast of vodka.
I sit down and rest my head in my arms, feeling no pain because of the alcohol..
I looked up at the teacher who crossed his arms.
"Care to explain why your late mr gross?", He said and I looked at him smiling.
"No I CaNt you Bastard.", I snapped and put my feet up on the desk.
You know what why the fuck should I try at life anymore?!
I'm just gonna kill myself soon anyway so why does it matter if I get expelled?!
"Detention MR GROSS!", He snapped and I radishes my hands up and pretend to be scared.
"Oh so scary you prick!", I snapped and he rolled his eyes.
"Detentions for a whole month!"
Everyone gasped and I smiled at the teacher.
"Oh yeah now we're talking you twat."
He snaps and walks up to and slams his hands on my desk.
"Don't swear at me! You have no power here! You depressed little prick.. Oh yeah I know.. Every teacher knows..", I felt like I exited my body.
Everyone was gasping.
"Attention seeker!! He's rich Ofcourse he's doing this for attention!"
I let there words slowly cut me..
I stared at the teacher and spat in his face.
"Nobody likes you.. Your a sad teacher using his power over little kids!", I snapped at him and he grabbed my arms which made me squirm in pain.
"Ahhh.. We got a cutter here everyone!"
The word "cutter" ran through my head and everyones laughter.
I looked at the teacher and felt all my thoughts eat me at once..
This was proof I deserve to die...
I go up form my seat and grabbed my bag.
He grabbed my wrist and I hissed.
"Let go!", I shouted and he shook his head.
"I'm not letting you leave.."
I clenched my fist and punched him.
I ran out the class room and I saw Devi laughing with.. Paxton.. They seemed to be hitting it of..
I tried to stop the tears from falling but they did.
I ran out of the school and looked at the passing cars..
I was tempted but I growled and called up mike.

We sat in silence and I looked at myself..
I had put black make up on.. and I was wearing a black leather jacket..
I've turned full emo haven't I?
I turned to mike and he was looking at the road.
"Jericho my boy what the hell is going on with you? Why are you wearing this?! And why do you smell of alcohol?!"
I sobbed feeling all my emotions escape me at once.
"I'm suicidel Mike..I want to die I've been trying to die for days..", I admit he then pulls over and looks at me dead in the eyes.
"What?!"
I chuckle nervously.
"I don't know what I'm saying.. I've been drinking loads the past few days..", I admit and he stared at me and hugs me hard.
"Shhh.. Thank you for telling me.. This can be our secret.. Do you wanna stay with your old pops tonight?"
I nodded and he called up my mum.
He told her and she agreed.
He left out the suicide part but he did say about the alcohol which annoyed me a bit.
"What the hell I need that alcohol?!", I snapped and he shook his head.
"You dont.. You need to clear your head my grandson.."
I sighed and soon enough I fell asleep at his house.
I woke up with a raging hangover and I searched for a bottle of alcohol but found none.
I growled and ran a hand through my hair.
I then went to the bathroom and took my jacket of.
I then washed the make up of. And stared at my face.. Wanting to smash the mirror again..
"Mikeeee!!!", I shouted and realised I was home alone..
I took the bandages of my hands and was happy to see them healed.. I still added some on there for those pesky glass cuts.
I looked at my new wrist cuts and looked at the top of my arm where lovely white scars where.
I chuckled and grabbed the knife before cutting over those scars.
I hissed at the pain. God self harming a lot better with alcohol in your system.
I bandages my arm up and sighed.
Is this how sad my life was now?
My thoughts went to Devi and her and Paxton.
I felt the devil whisper but I pushed it away.
Devi was laughing and flirting with Paxton?!
She doesn't love me anymore..
I felt my heart shatter again..
Your no one Ben.. Just please kill your self it'll be better for anyone—
I chucked the knife and fell to the ground sobbing.
Maybe it's time..

Devi POV
I looked at Ben in his black jumper and smiled to him. He looked at me with no emotion.
"Hey enemy."
His words sliced my heart but I know he's just doing this to drive me away because he's hurting.
"Enemy?", I said and he looked at me.
"Yeah I can't be your friend and pretend everything's fine! So I'm just going back to being your enemy.", everything about that sentence felt of..
I still looked at him gets threatening to spill..
He looked at me and his eyes flickered with darkness..
He walked to the bathroom to probably hurt himself and there's nothing I can do to stop it.
I sighed and turned to walk to class but I'm stopped by Paxton.
"Hey Vish everything ok?", He said and I hugged him tight.
I sobbed into his shoulder.
"B-BEN HATES ME!", I sobbed and I looked at Oaxton he sighed.
"Devi.. He's hurting.. But he's good at not showing it.. Just give him time.", he said and I wipe my eyes.
"Thanks your a good friend.", I smiled and he smiled to.
"Yeah a good friend..", He said a bit down and I wanted to question him but lessons started.

Paxton dragged me out of class to tell me some news of his.
"What is it?"
"Jessica got into fashion school!!"
I laughed and hugged him.
"I'm sooo happy for you!!", I smiled and he stared at my eyes then my lips..
"Paxton.. I still like Ben..", I sighed and he nodded.
"And I respect your desision.. But Ben just ran out of the classroom just then."
I turned to see his figure at the end of the hall.
"What was that about?", I asked and Paxton shrugged.
"I'll meet you back here Speedo.", yes that's his nickname, I laughed and he chucked.
I walked to the class and the teacher was calling someone.
"What happened?!"
"Bens an attention seeker! Cutting himself and all that bullshit!", a random person said and I became defensive.
"Hey you! Ya you! You don't know what he's going through so why don't you ask that bitch over there if she's realllyy a Kardashian!", I snapped and they all shutted up.
"But he-"
"Shut up! He never made it obvious he's been hiding it for weeks.. And I let him down..", I sighed and decided to get back to class.
I have a detention but I don't mind gives me time to think..
I've made a mistake I wasn't there when Ben needs me the most.. He might be dead..
And I left him at his hardest point..
I need to fix my mistake.

Author note
Btw I know theses chapters are getting quite short but I'm saving a really long own for them next few alright bye check out my other story and stay safe also global warming is still a thing it hasn't disappeared..