~ Unfortunate Love ~

The Tornado Meets The Volcano

It was December of 2019, that month had always been hard for me since I lost my last lover in that month in the year of 2018 to suicide. I felt I would never love again, love would come and go as I expected and I  didn't expect much out of any relationships at that point. Getting to the point, December was always a month I got to see my family who lived far away, so I barely got to see them. I was so excited to finally be up there and spending time with my favorite grandmother who always spoiled me more than I deserved, to add onto the excitement I was talking to a guy I finally felt was special, rather than just another relationship that would come and go. Riki would be my one and only.

It started like this, beginning of December and my other crush had failed... He was leaving because things going on at home and I'd never be able to talk or see him again. Although it hurt I decided to start searching for something new, that's when it happened...I found Riki. At first I was scared to even talk to Riki, but my best friend told me it was worth a shot and so I went in. Getting to know Riki went a lot easier than I thought it would, each day he would text me later in the day after school and we would talk about our day and learn more and more about each other.  I started to feel closer and connected to Riki, but decided as all of my other romance it wouldn't work out and decided to always hide how I felt toward him.

The middle of December came quicker than expected. Me and Riki had been growing closer and closer as each day of December went on, and I was preparing for my trip to go see my family. A few days before it was decided we'd leave for the trip, Riki told me he had something really important to tell me, ended up Riki also caught feelings for me during the time we talked and we decided to proceed to a relationship. Like I said before, I never expected a lot out of any relationship I have been in... but for some reason Riki felt special... and special he sure would be.
Everything felt so amazing and like a dream. At the start of my trip he would call and text me everyday, it was always so nice talking to him and knowing he really cared, but as time went on he started to grow cold and distant. He wouldn't make as much time to talk to me or even care to talk to me at all. During that time of my life, I was very confused and didn't understand the truth behind why he was doing this. It went on for another month until February 2nd of 2020 came and he decided to finally break us off. Honestly, I believe at the start of our relationship I had a crush, but never did I have love for him.. so when the break up happened I rather moved on quickly and barely blinked a thought about him.