I leave out my window and make my way through the alley ways. I get into my suit but I'm feeling really dysphoric tonight and I hate the way the suit is so tight on my body. I move through the streets. Then I start swinging around looking for anything. I don't see anything and after almost an hour of patrolling I decide to sit down on one of the roofs and rest because I'm feeling pretty anxious. My "rest" turns into me hating myself and starting to cry.
I'm sitting on the top of a tall building. My feet are dangling over the edge as I cry. I have my mask pulled up a little so it was easier to breathe. I need to talk to someone but I know ned is asleep right now and Jackson isn't answering. I don't know who else to talk to.
Peter
Hey
Are you awake?
The Doctor
Why are you, is the real question
Peter
I can't sleep...
The Doctor
Why's that?
Peter
Rough night I guess.
I'm just so tired I can't sleep
you know?
The Doctor
Yeah I know.
I've had plenty of those nights myself
Peter
Sorry...
The Doctor
It's fine. You just reminded me that I need sleep too.
Peter
Oh...
The Doctor
It's alright, I'm not asleep yet so what's up?
Peter
Well the thing is...
I'm having a really bad night. I just don't feel like me and I feel so dysphoric
The Doctor
What has you so down right now?
Peter
A few kids at school have gotten really... rough about it
And I guess I've just spiralled from there. I'm currently sitting on the edge of a building...
I don't plan to do anything tho!
Sorry to dump all this on you
The Doctor
You aren't in the right state of mind right now so move away from the edge. Then take a few deep breaths. You are valid Peter.
I do as he says and start to violently cry. I'm shaking from anxiety and cold and I can't stop the flow of tears. I breathe and try to calm myself down.
Peter
Ok i think im calm
The Doctor
Good. Now talk to me. Tell how you feel? Why were you on the roof?
Peter
I normally go to a roof when I'm anxious. It helps calm me down. I love the look of the city and all of the noises. It's exhilarating.
I was having a depressive episode so I thought I would go up to the roof to calm my nerves. That's why I was on the edge, so I could see more of the city.
The Doctor
Did it help?
Peter
A little but not as much as I hoped it would.
sorry for bothering you.
The Doctor
You didn't bother me.
Are you feeling better now?
Peter
Yeah, I am
The Doctor
Good. I'm glad to hear.
Peter
Thank you for caring. Today was pretty stressful.
All the kids are pretty anxious as well I can tell.
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It's Alright (Trans Peter Parker)
AltelePeter is a young trans guy who lives in an orphanage. His life is turned around completely when he texts a wrong number and gets adopted! He doesn't know how to make sense of the situations he has somehow gotten himself into. Read on to know what ha...
