Be My Future

7.

Nat's POV

His warm lips were on mine, his hands on my body. Suddenly that armchair felt too small for us.

-I locked the door, no one is coming here- I said.

His lips went on my neck, caressing it and it made me shiver.

I felt his hands on the bare skin of my belly and for how much I wanted it to happen I had to stop.

-We can't, not here- I said -We never... You know... And I don't want it to be in my office- I said.

James looked at me nodding.

-My home, after you finish working- he said -Your boyfriend is in Washington for work right? He wouldn't notice your absence-.

-Yes, I will come after work- I said -Now you should go, Steve is coming here-.

Indeed, that day I was going to lunch with my cousin and I was sure he was going to ask me about James, he saw him in my office sometimes.

-So, what is Barnes doing in your office?- he asked biting his cheeseburger.

-Are you spying me? He is my patient- I said.

-I still don't trust him- he said -And I still don't like the idea of him around you-.

-Don't worry, I can take care of myself- I said.

He smiled.
Our relationship was becoming stronger day after day and I was so glad that he was there with me when I needed him.

-I have to tell you something- I said -But please don't judge me or get mad-.

-I won't I promise- he said.

-I... In New York, remember when I said I was going to explore the city?- I asked and Steve nodded -Well... I was exploring yes but not alone, James was with me-.

Steve's eyes opened in shock.

-What?- he asked -I told you to stay away from him!-.

-I know but... He helped me a lot and it is thank to him that I started speaking again- I said -I... We loved each other and... When I saw him in my office for the first time I... I kissed him Steve, several times-.

-What?! But you have Bruce, he is the best guy you could ever ask for, why cheat on him with James?!- Steve asked.

-I didn't cheat on him! I just kissed James but I am not going to continue this, I said to him that I don't want to continue what we had in New York- I lied -Please don't tell Bruce-.

-I won't but you should do it- he said and I nodded.

I would have probably felt bad, I was having a relationship with two men but when I was in front of James' apartment door that evening I didn't feel it was wrong.

As soon as I entered his apartment, James' lips were on mine, kissing and biting them like if he was starving and they were the only food he could get.
I kissed him back, my back against the wall.

-James...- I whispered.

-Shh... You are my guest tonight, let me do all the work- he said.

I don't know how much time passed, I was completely lost in him.

His touch, his caresses, his kisses, everything screamed that it was wrong but I liked it.

I didn't realize how much I missed him until that night.

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