a tear for every drop of rain.

maybe one day

!!!A FEW TRIGGERS IN THIS CHAPTER. TRIGGER WARNING!!

Macaría knew what it was exactly. she gripped her
belly and began to really cry

Angie: he was going to make you his forever, macaría. would you have accepted it

Macaría: of course i would've.

Angie gives her the ring. it wasn't much but she adored it. it was a simple gold ring with a small diamond in the center. Angie hugs her and they both cry.

Angie: you'll always be apart of this family. even if you meet someone else. you'll always have a place in my heart as my daughter in-law

Macaría chokes back more tears and nods. Angie leads her into his room and they go through stuff together.

they sorted through everything and everyone picked what they wanted of his. Angie, Cassie, and Asia chose certain clothing. Cassie also got his watch, And Asia got his silver rosary. Angie kept as much as she could. but she insisted that macaría take some of his hoodies and a pair of his shoes.

*4 hours later*

Macaría is driving home as she's driving she thinks to herself "am i really going to be able to support this kid. i'm in online school. i'm 18. can i really do this alone"

she pulls into the long road and sees Alix's car.

Macaría: fuck.

she parks the truck, gathers Adem's things and goes to open the door. just as she's about to grab the handle Alix swings open the door.

Alix: Macaría i heard what happened

Macaría: okay.

Alix: don't do that mac. don't shut us out. we are here for you. we want to know what we can do for you.

Macaría is carrying his stuff up the stairs and goes into her room. alix follows

Macaría: you know what, i'm so tired of people saying that shit.

Alix: what do you mean.

Macaría: it's meaningless. what the fuck can you do honestly. you can't bring me back the love of my life. you can't give me a reason to keep going. you can't give me assurance that this baby will grow up okay. you can't give me fucking shit.

Alix: why are you saying this ?

Macaría: THE FATHER OF MY UNBORN CHILD DIED IN FRONT OF MY EYES. HE DIED AND CAME BACK 6 TIMES. MY BABY SISTER WAS MURDERED ALIX. MURDERED. WHAT CAN YOU POSSIBLY DO FOR ME. WHAT CAN YOU POSSIBLY TELL ME THAT WILL MAKE ME FEEL OKAY

Alix: hey your not the only one who lost him. we lost him too.

Macaría: YOU GUYS DIDNT EVEN WANT HIM TO MOVE IN WITH US. I HAD TO LEGIT FORCE YOU GUYS TO EVEN TRY TO GET ALONG

Alix: look where it got us though mac, it's like we where all a big family.

Macaría: i cant do this right now alix. i have to go.

Alix: you aren't leaving this house again.

Macaría: get. the. fuck. out. of. my. fucking. way.

Alix: no.

Macaría: Why not

Alix: because your not in any shape to go anywhere

Macaría: alix your not my fucking mom. i'm a big girl. i can take care of myself.

Alix: really ? you can?

macaría: yes.

Alix: then what the fuck is this

alix pulls macaría's wrist to reveal cuts. Alix starts to cry.

Macaría: why the fuck are you crying. you already knew they where there

Alix: because i hoped i was wrong. WHY DID YOU DO THIS. YOU HADNT FOR SO LONG.

macaría: I FEEL NUMB AGAIN OKAY. HES GONE ALIX. HES SERIOUSLY GONE. IM NEVER GONNA SEE HIM AGAIN. IM NEVER GONNA KISS HIM, OR HOLD HIS HAND, OR TELL HIM I LOVE HIM, OR HOLD HIM IN MY ARMS WHEN HE WOULD BE SAD. IM NEVER GONNA GET TO MARRY HIM. IM NEVER GONNA HAVE ANYMORE KIDS WITH HIM. IVE WANTED TO DIE BEFORE BUT HOLY FUCKING SHIT. NEVER IN MY LIFE HAVE I WANTED TO DIE SO MUCH. I JUST WANT TO GO TO SLEEP AND NOT WAKE UP. I JUST WANT TO BE WITH HIM AGAIN. IT HANST EVEN BEEN A FULL FUCKING DAY AND I ALREADY WANT TO DIE. HE WAS GOING TO PROPOSE. WE WERE GOING TO GET MARRIED AND GROW OLD TOGETHER. WE WERE GONNA LIVE IN THIS HOUSE TOGETHER. WH WERE GONNA BE HAPPY. BUT HES GONE NOW. HES FUCKING GONE AND I WANT TO JUST BE WITH HIM AGAIN.

Alix: MY BABY FUCKING DIED MACARIA. KIANA DIDNT MAKE IT THROUGH THE NIGHT. SHE WAS BORN TO EARLY. YOUR NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO LOST SOMEONE. SHE DIDNT EVEN GET HER FIRST BATH. SHE DIDNT SMILE. SHE DIDNT LAUGH. IM NOT GONNA SEE WHO SHE IS GONNA LOOK LIKE. THE GREATEST ACCOMPLISHMENT IVE EVER MADE DIED IN MY FUCKING ARMS. IM NEVER GONNA SEE HER WALK OR TALK OR SMILE OR LAUGH OR ANYTHING. SO YEAH MACARIA. I KNOW HOW YOU FUCKING FEEL. IM NOT FEELING.

macaría and alix break down on the floor and start crying their eyes out for what feels like forever.

Alix: come on. let's just lay down on the bed and cry. the floor is fucking cold.

macaría: *giggles* okay *sniffle*

they lay down on the bed together, hold each other and cry. they cry for so long. they fall asleep in each other's arms. this was a normal thing to them. they are basically sisters. they support each other through everything. Callie comes in and they all sit together on the bed. they talk for a while. it was just like how things were when they met. plus the pain and relationships.

Callie and Alix went to Adem's funeral and rosario with Macaría. they listened to the words she wrote for him and cried with her. Callie and Macaría set up a funeral for Kiana. Alix decided to cremate her daughter to keep her near wherever. So before they put Kiana's ashes in the urn they got a small vile, painted it baby pink, wrote Kiana in cursive, put some of her ashes in the vile, and sealed it. They gave the vile to alix for Kiana's one month. Alix and Macaría went on their road to closure. 

Alix, Chris, and Callie set up a gender reveal party for Macaría. they invited Macaría's family and Adem's family. and for the actual reveal part they had Macaría pop three balloons since she was having triplets(this shit is weird i know)

she popped the first one and it was a girl. everyone screamed. she popped the second one, boy. everyone screamed again. she popped the third one, another girl. everyone was screaming and jumping for happiness. macaría looked up and smiled. tears streaming down her cheeks. it was like she was given back everyone. kiana, Adem, and, Divina.

everything was good. and she hoped it would stay that way. if it didn't, there is more life to live.

3 years later Macaría, Alix, and Callie are raising the kids together. Callie and Alix both were pregnant. Callie is having a girl and Alix is having a boy. Macaría was at the end of her last year as a med student. Alix became a tattoo artist. Callie became a designer and Chris became a trainer for Basketball.

Macaría would talk to her kids every day about their dad. they had a good connection with their aunts and grandparents. Macaría was finally at piece with her life. at this point what could go wrong.

*alarm starts beeping*

August 22 2017

desteney: do i have to go to school ?

femy: yes. come on it's only the second day of 7th grade. maybe you'll make some knew friends.

desteney: ugh fine. i had the weirdest dream.

FIN