Cry's Of Hell: Book One to the Cry's Of Hell Series

Dark Into Light (24)

Few weeks later, I never went to Oregon. The only reason I was going was to see Gemma's grave, but I decided that it was the best for me to stay with Nero and Wendy because I was positive they'd accuse me of killing her, unless they knew Jax killed her, which would leave no suspects.

I knew that Unser also got killed by Jax he hadn't been home in the amount of days he left, therefore, my only conclusion to Gemma and Unser, they were both dead.

As the weeks went by, things started to go back to normal with the Club and my life.

For a few days, I was in a depression mode, not wanting to do anything. All I wanted was for Jax to be back in my life.

Wendy and Nero were my balance, keeping me from drugging and shooting myself which I tried multiple times but never went through with.

As for Abel and Thomas, it was nice to bond with them for days on end. Abel became much closer with me in those weeks and he'd ask me questions about his dad and why he did what he did.

I could never answer it with a straight face, I'd always break down and cry and the same excuse I used over and over was, "He wanted to protect you and Thomas."

When he started school again, Wendy would take him and pick him up.

Nero and Wendy never wanted to leave me alone because they thought one day they'd come back and see me laying on the ground bleeding or with a pill bottle next to me.

My Men Of Hell had helped me a lot in the long run, they knew I was close with Jax and that I was very heart broken. Especially Blake. He knew I was hurting because of all the people who died and one day we had a meeting which lead us to put a small sewn patch on the left side of all our vests saying In The Memory of Our Fallen Members RIP.

"Is this what we want, I mean, I know James over here wanted to hang Zak and Dean but, you know." I said as I sat down in the "President's" chair as they all sat according to rank.

"They're our Club members. We need to pay our respects and treat our fallen like we would if one of us went down." Hunter said looking at everyone seriously.

"He's right," James said, "If one of us fell, we'd do whatever to pay our respects, therefore we to do the same for Clay, Zak, Dean, and Ty."

"Well I mean, it's up to you guys but I just think that we should out their names or something else on the patch." Jake and Jason argued back.

"Let's just leave it how it is." James said.

As I sat there litsening to them arguing, I kept thinking I should tell them that I was pregnant, but if I did, I'd risk getting Mayhem upon me. None of us had ever had kids, and we said that we wouldn't have kids.

We had to accept Hunter though, he had one kid when he joined us because his wife and him had to figure out how the could spilt their days since they were divorced. Therefore, Hunter had weekends and his wife had week days.

We also had to accept the fact that Zak had a kid at one point, but his girlfriend got full custody over her, which led Zak to owing child support.

The argument was won by James, Hunter, Blake, David, and George winning the vote verses Jake and Jason.

"Is there anything else we need to talk or worry about at this moment?" James asked everyone.

I took a moment and closed my eyes, wanting to risk taking the chance, but I never did.

They all looked at me to slam my hand on the table to dismiss and when I did, they all stood up and flooded out of the small room.

I drove back to the farm that night and when I walked in, it was about 5:30 and Wendy was on the couch watching Abel and Thomas playing.

I put my keys on the kitchen table and walked over to Wendy as she smiled when I sat next to her.

"Hey Ky."

"Hey."

"Everything ok?"

"Yeah. I've been doing a lot of thinking though."

"About?"

"Going home."

"To Nevada City?"

"Yeah."

"Its up to you Kyana. When the baby's almost due, you gotta come back."

"That's the thing. I'm thinking of staying until he or she is born, then figure out what I'm going to do after that. I have so many things going on back home though, with trying to figure out who killed my guys and figuring out how I can hide from the Club until the baby's born."

"Do what you did with Jax, keep in contact with the Club. They don't need to know your pregnant. Then when you have the baby, I'm sure you'll shrink down to the size you are quickly so that shouldn't a problem and you're not even that big for three months so don't worry Kyana."

"And what do I do when I need to go back. Leave the kid with you guys?"

"I mean, I have Abel and Thomas but-" She got cut off as we heard the door shut as Nero walked in and smiled at us, "anyways, Nero and I will try to take care of him or her. It's no problem."

"Are you guys figuring out what you're going to do with the baby?" Nero asked as he sat down in a lighter sand colored chair that matched the couch.

"Yeah." Wendy said.

"Well, Kyana. Me and Wendy are willing to take care of the little guy. It's not a problem for us. I have work and what not but I can take a few hours or days off to help."

"Thank you guys. I really mean it." I said as I looked at my stomach.

"No problem. We'll do our best for the kid. And we'll have Abel and Thomas help with him too." Nero chuckled.

"Have you thought of a name yet?" Wendy asked.

"Sort of. I mean, I don't really have an idea for a baby girl but for a boy I do."

"Oh great, another boy to add," She laughed, "and what's the name you're thinking of?"

"Darius Nathaniel Teller."

"You're gonna give him Jax's middle name?"

"Yeah."

"I like it. It's a cute name."

"Thanks. That's the only name that I have ever liked, so, Darius Nathaniel Teller was my first option."

"Well I like it." Wendy smiled.

"I like it too." Nero said as Abel walked over toward me.

"What's my brothers name?"

I smiled and looked at him in the eyes, "I'm not sure if it's your brother yet, but if it is, his name is going to be Darius."

"Dar-us?"

"No. Darius. Da-ri-us."

"Darius?"

"Yeah. That's it Abel."

He smiled and went back to playing with a small golden ring that Thomas tried to take from him but Abel wasn't gonna give it over.

I got in the middle of them and I asked Abel to give it to me, and when he did, I was shocked. I didn't make it noticeable but I looked at the ring twice to make sure I was reading it right.

Wendy looked at me with confusion, "What's that?"

"Nothing. A play ring."

"Who gave him it?"

"I don't know."

"Do you want me to keep it safe?"

"No," I said shoving it into my Jean pocket, "I'll keep it."

I walked up the stairs into the room I was staying in and I turned on the light reaviling the plain navy blue comforter and white pillows as I sat down on the edge of the bed and pulled the ring back out of my pocket.

It was a golden ring that had "SONS" written on it in black.

I stared at the ring for a while and then I put it on the side table and laid down in bed, not realizing that I would fall asleep not far after.