Perfect You

somewhere

Glass of coffee in my hand, I sat near the window watching the city lights.

She has gone for four hours, why does she take so long.

Maybe she won't comeback anymore, I know she still loves that girl. I know someday she will leave me for her.

And the day is today.

The tears fall down from my eyes. Are you gonna ruin our pefect years as couple for her ?

As the question pop up in my mind, I heard the door was opened.

"I..". I cut her off when she was about to say something.

"I thought you won't comeback". I said unbothered to look at her.

"Why did you say such thing ?"

She came to me and hug me from behind.  we sat on the couch.

I slap her hand off my waist.

"I won't you see her, I didn't want you to see us together I know it could hurt you so I take her away from your eyes".

I laugh in pain "you just leave without asking my permission, you leave without giving me a chance to say a word. How could I believe that you go with her for the sake of me ?" I ask her in a calm tone.

"How was it ? What were you doing for four hours?  Does it feel good to make out with her..  is she better than me?".  I throw the multiple questions in tears, imagining she did that with another girl with the girl who might be she still in love.

I could see her was in shocked to see me like this.

"We don't do anything, we just talked.. I asked her to give up on me, I asked her to never come to me anymore because I love you".

"Mina... Ah believe me, I only love you it was not like what you  thinking".

She cup my face to make me looking at her face.

"I don't know, I didn't see what were you doing with her so just leave me alone I need to calm down and trying to believe you".

 
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"where are we going?".

"Somewhere, that's far from my girlfriend". I know tzuyu is her biggest fear, biggest insecurity for her in our relationship.

"Why ?"
                       
"your presence is hurting her". I gave her death glare

"Where is your car?"

"That's my car".

"Your key, let me Drive". I don't even want to smile at her.

Tzuyu keep staring at me.

Instead of going to cafe, I brought her to this place. No ones here.

"I don't want anyone to see us together".

"What do you want to talk about?". I  asked her without even looking at her

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She doesn't even smile at me, I miss the way you smile at me.

"I love you.. I really love you, I've been waiting to meet you and tell you everything that I haven't told you. I love you since we were seventeen but I don't have courage to tell you, I'm afraid I'll ruin my dream".

"But now I don't care about everything, I just want to let you know, I love you..". She cut me off.

"It's too late, I love someone else. I love myoui mina, the girl that you saw before. She is everything for me, I won't hurt her so Let's not seeing each other anymore, don't come even when you miss me like dying ".

"that' s what I felt before she comes to my life, you don't want to ruin your dream but you ruined my life, you don't know what I've been through when you treat me like criminals just because I loved you ".

"Let's end this now, Mina must be waiting for me".

"No, I can't". I can't let you go, not anymore.

I grip her wrist for holding her to go and then sat on her laps. I kissed her lips roughly because she tries to push me away.

But then she just stay  without kissing me back, let me to kiss her softly.

But then I saw the tears  fall down from her face.

She wipe her tears while crying she said "please don't do this kind of thing anymore, don't come to me I beg you. I love mina, I won't hurt her.. I don't want to lose her".

I was surprised to see her like this, that girl she is so lucky to have Jeongyeon who love her this much.

I let her go..

She walks straight, leaving me without turning her head while I keep watching her back.