DILEMMA

CHAPTER 11

(The narrator here is Stiles)

I can't believe she would do that to me. I was there for her all these years. I was the one who was trying to make her laugh each and every second. I was the one who was trying so hard for her to realise that... that I love her. I've loved her since the first day I laid my eyes on her. I remember how it went. Obviously, I don't remember anything while I was a baby but I do remember the day I realised that I like her. It was on the 7th of October. She was running around chasing a yellow butterfly, with a red skirt and white T-shirt with rainbow stripes. She was pretty good at choosing outfits since she was three years old. I ran in my house and brought the swimming pool cleaner. Basically, it was a stick with a net on top. I chased the butterfly with the net and finally caught it. I held the butterfly in my tiny hands and placed in her hands. That day she hugged me so tight and said, "Stiles you're my best friend." That day it clicked me that I was hers and she was mine. Nothing could change that. I thought everything was going great except the fact that I couldn't bring out the guts to tell her that I've loved her since so long. Now all of a sudden a guy comes and within a week he steals her. He stole her. How could she do that to me? I've been there when she broke her ankle. When she gets humiliated I humiliate myself so the attention comes on me instead of her. I've done everything and she never realised it was more than a friendship. I know she likes me more than a best friend she just hasn't realised it yet.

(Here the narrator is Alexandra)

I went upstairs grabbed my stuff closed my bag and brought it downstairs.

"Here let me take that for you." Said Drake. He was being so nice to me. Like he understood what was going on. Thinking about what was going on I couldn't help but sob. I fell to my knees shaking my head, my hands were trembling. Oh, what was I going to do? Drake immediately ran to sit beside me. He put his hands on my shoulders and pulled me in taking the hair away from my face. We sat there until I could finally speak. My mascara was all over my face. I spoke with a croaked voice like something was pulling voice box down.

"Drake... what happened today-" I sniffled, "I just need some time to figure things out. I'm just so confused and I can't... I need to make it up for Stiles."

He looked at me and I could see he was sad. The hurt in his eyes I couldn't stand looking at it. I looked away. He pulled away from me. He said, "You regret it, don't you?" 

I immediately spoke looking at him eye to eye, "No no no, of course, I don't regret it. I just need some time." He stood up carried my bag outside and sat in the car. I lost both of them. What did you do? I said to myself. I was so angry and frustrated with myself. How could you manage to lose them both Alexandra? I thought to myself. I stood up. Walked to the car and sat inside. I looked over at Drake who was beside me on the driving seat. He wasn't looking at me. He looked straight ahead. The engine roared and he took a fast reverse. I held the sides of my seat to prevent me from falling over. He sped his car on the highway. "Drake calm down!" It didn't make a difference. "I'll grab a taxi! Let me out!" That caught his attention. He slowed down to a stop. He looked over at me. Hatred was filled in his eyes. "Get out." He said. "Wha-at?" I stammered.

"Get out of my car Alexandra. I can't take it anymore. I really like you can't you see? But all that has mattered to you is what Stiles would say. Think about yourself god damn it! It's me or him. I can't stand him anymore. Each time he is around you're drawn to him and you do what he wants you to do. Like a puppeteer controlling a puppet. When he is not around it's like you look at me as if I'm the only one, like I'm your everything. You give me false hopes. I dealt with it and now I can't. It's either him or me. You choose." He said that so fast it took me some time to process what he said. Him or Stiles? That's not right! "You can't do that to me!" I said tears rolling down my cheeks. "I'm done, Alexandra! Take your time. If I see you with him I'll understand it's him." He said that not looking at me. Something fell from his face. A tear. I was hurting him. I was hurting everyone. I got out of the car opened the trunk took my bag. It was so heavy I fell with a cut on my knee. It was stinging so bad. He got off the car. For a second I thought it was for me. He closed the trunk, looked over at me. His eyes were full of tears. He then went back in his car and sped away. Leaving me here stranded.