DILEMMA

CHAPTER 13

As I got in the car I thought to myself. I don't deserve them. Not Stiles, not Drake. I'm such a fool and I got two people everyone longs for. A best friend and a crush who likes you back madly. I have both. I could be known as a lucky girl but I don't deserve them.

"Rosey...do you know why I was mad?" Asked Stiles, his eyebrows inclined inwards and he looked disappointed.

"Yeah because I lied to you that I was going to Drakes beach house. I'm such a fool." I said.

"Yes, obviously I'd be angry because of that. Do you know why I was actually angry?" Asked Stiles. This made me confused what more could I have possibly done which made him angrier?

"Ummm....no I don't." I said looking down to my palms.

"It's because... I know you won't believe me but, I love you Alexandra Rosey. I don't kno-" I cut off Stiles.

"WHAT?!" I shouted looking at him.

"I never should have said that. I'm sorry but I loved you since the very first day I saw you." He said looking straight ahead keeping his eyes on the road. I relaxed a bit in my seat. I took a bit of time to think. All those times he paid for lunch. Those caring eyes when I was sick or hurt. The jealousy on the first day of school. It all made much more sense now. I looked back at him. His perfectly symmetrical face. His tiny pointed nose, thin lips, smooth hair, worried eyes. I began to notice how he was. Even though I was his best friend since my whole life how could I have not noticed him? I felt guilty. I love Stiles as a best friend, or was it something else? Something more?

So many thoughts were passing through my head at that moment.

"Don't you see? I was there the whole time Rosey. In health and sickness, when you were happy or sad. I've been here in front of you my whole life and you hadn't given a second thought about me. But one newbie came into our school and stole you away. Don't you see? He is all looks no care! How could he have left you in the middle of a night stranded on a street in California! Do you know how risky that is?" Stiles said all in one breath. 

Everything was beginning to make sense now. All the times I noticed Drake it was his looks. His beautiful eye-catching body and his aura was all that was dragging me to him. I was just like all the other girls in school. Everyone was attracted to him. So was I. He left me stranded on the street. Somebody who cared for me would never have done that. How could I? How could I not notice what was before me and go for a fake person? I couldn't make my decision yet. I needed to do something before I told Stiles anything. What I have done was so foolish.

"Please say something you're making me nervous." Said Stiles.

"Sorry I just got lost in thought. It is all making sense now. I can't decide to do anything now at this moment. I need to do something before that." I said.