Constant

When will I see her again?

Devon's POV

I sit in my truck and watch this beautiful girl walk into a shitty trailer. She deserves so much more than this. Once she walks inside I begin to drive out of the driveway. As I make my way back home, all I can do is think about her, her beautiful smile, shinny long black hair, funny personality. But shes so insecure and I can't wrap my head around why. I pull up to a stop light and look out my passenger window and I catch a glimpse at something on the ground of my truck. Her skateboard. Now I have something to text her about and a reason to hang out with her again. If she'll even agree to talk to me again. I completely understand where she's coming from. I have a new girlfriend every week. But the thing is is that I don’t care about any of them. I don’t know if they have siblings, what there birthday is or even what there favorite color is. But there is something different about Sam. Everyone assumes I'm a jerk. None of them know that maybe I don’t have the perfect life they think I do. I wish people would stop fucking judging me before they know me. I’m sure Sam will never want to be with because of all the rumors shes already heard. I’m sure she doesn’t even want to get to know me! I’m not good enough for her! She deserves so much better! Goddammit. I slam my hands against the steering wheel and scream. I make another right turn down my street. And turn into my driveway. Before I get out of my car, I sit in my truck and just think about her. I pull out my phone and the napkin she had handed me, I put her number in my phone, and send her a text saying that I have her board.

“I have your board, wanna meet up tomorrow and ill give it to you?”

I shouldn’t have said that I sound like I 'm trying to hard. Like I want to hang out with her. I punch the steering wheel again. I thrown my door open and jump out of my truck. I walk around to the passenger side and take her skateboard out of the car. I walk up to my 2 story house and unlock the double doors. I slam the door shut behind me and run up the stairs to my bedroom. As I reach my bedroom my phone goes off. I quickly pull my phone out of my pocket to read the text.

“okay where and what time?” I read the text

I have know idea what to say. Where should we go? I was hoping she would tell me where and what time. Maybe I should tell her never mind. No, I can't do that I know that I want to see her again, I need to see her again and I can't wait until Monday. I finally respond with the dumbest response ever.

“idk its up to you I'm free all day tomorrow”

I had plans with family tomorrow but, I didn’t want to go anyway and I have to see her again. I put my phone on vibrate because its almost midnight and I don’t want to wake up everyone in the house. I change into some sweats, take my shirt off and lay down in bed.

My phone vibrates.

“You have my only transportation”

I didn’t even think about that I'm an idiot. So I guess I should pick her up? Now I get to decide when she goes home, so we can hang out longer. I don’t know what time to tell her, I want it to be in the morning so I don’t have to impatiently wait, but I don’t want her to think that I’m just being obnoxious.

“I'll meet you at your house tomorrow at 11am”

I should have said noon. Maybe she'll ask to change it to noon. I doubt it. I'm over thinking all of this and she probably doesn’t even care.

My phone vibrates.

“Okay see you then”

I don't know how to reply to that. I don’t want the conversation to be over. I want to keep talking to this beautiful girl forever. That’s it that’s what I’ll say.

“Goodnight beautiful”

Shit! I don't know whats gotten into me. I never text my girlfriend cute things like that. Wait, I do know whats gotten into me, Samantha Moore.

I lay back down in bed. I don't know what to think about all of this. I've never had any real emotion towards any of my girlfriends, but Sam I barley know and I can't stop thinking about her. She probably won't ever like me back because she knows that I'm bad for her. She knows she can do better. So much better.