The Auction

Chapter 18 ☢ 🔥

Dana's POV

It felt different to be lying in bed with Kookie, not bad but different. I am not sure how this is supposed to work. I have never been this close to anyone else but Tae before.

Kookie and Tae are similar but so very different. Kookie is a bit taller, quieter but no less intense. They both have an athletic type built but, Kookie is much more defined. When he walked out of the bathroom without a shirt, I definitely noticed the time spent in his gym. Probably wouldn't kill me to go check it out, use it maybe.

I am pulled out of my thoughts when he pulls me closer to him and I feel my back hit his chest. He rests his chin on the top of my head.

Jungkook: I am not good at this. Any of this, making decisions or being around a woman. My entire life someone has always told me what to do. Not just Ms. Park but the guys too. As the youngest someone has always taken care of me.
His voice was soft, and I could tell he was thinking about what he wanted to say.

Jungkook: After meeting Ms. Lee for the first time I always did my best to stay with one of the guys. She made me afraid to be alone with a woman.
He begins to rub my belly softly as he speaks. I am not sure he knows he is doing it.

Jungkook: I figured helping them and doing what they asked was a small price to pay to stay away from the women that visited the auction house. She would always catch me alone in the gym or the kitchen. I am not sure how she knew my schedule, but she always did.
He took a deep breath and squeezes me.

Dana: You don't need to tell me anything Kookie. I want you to feel comfortable enough to be you here. If that means I have to do more for you I will, I can do that. I can make more decisions for you if that is what you need.
I hear him chuckle softly.

Jungkook: It's not who you are. I am not telling you this because I want you to change. I am telling you because you need to know. I don't want you to walk around on eggshells afraid that I might break. I don't want you to be afraid to love me. I think this is a big block for both of us. I may or may not give Tae these details later, but I want you to know now.
Gently patting his hand on my tummy, I wait on him to continue.

Jungkook: I have never had traditional sex with anyone. Ms. Lee would just touch me with her hands and mouth. I always felt so dirty and ashamed. I never wanted to be with her like that but I still you know finished.
I can hear the emotions in his voice, and the shiver of disgust in his body. it hurts my soul.

No one should ever have to go through that. I want to turn and hug him, but I don't want to make him feel like I'm making a move on him. So, I settle for caressing the hands he is using to rub my tummy.

Jungkook: I could never understand why I finished. I didn't want to be touched by her. There must be something wrong with me. I don't know if I will ever get over that or even where to begin to.
I could hear the pain in his voice, and it hurt me.

I have no idea how I can help him, but I will try everything I know. I turned over and looked him in the eye. Placing my hand on his cheek before I spoke.

Dana: There is nothing wrong with you. There are certain things that are simply out of our control. Make no mistake you will get through this, but it will take time and patience. There is no rush at all and if you want, we can even find you a therapist.
His squeezes me a little tighter.

Dana: Seeing a therapist doesn't make you weak or mean there is anything wrong with you. I won't make you go if you don't want too but it is an option.
He stiffened in my arms.

Jungkook: I want to try to work it out with you and Tae. I am not really big on strangers, especially women. You know men can't be therapist.
He is right men can't be therapist, it might be more damaging if I get the wrong therapist for him.

Dana: Just know that no one has the right to touch you without your permission, not even me. You don't need to feel pressured to do anything you don't want to do. We can be more affectionate and even intimate without having sex. Just know that if you want a therapist, I will find you the best one.
I nod my head.

Jungkook's POV

Dana: Tae and I will be here for you. We will support you the best we can.
I believe that she will move mountains for me.

Jungkook: I know you will. Right now, can we just cuddle and sleep? I just want to hold you and sleep for now.
She smiled and cuddled into my chest.

Dana: I like it here, you're warm.
I chuckled and rubbed her back.

She was almost purring as I kissed the top of her head. Cuddling up to her is different than cuddling with my brothers. For one she is soft and smells better. I notice that her breathing is even, and she is relaxed. I know she is sleep. I use this opportunity to feel her.

She is soft, curvy and smells like cookies and honey. Running my fingers slowly and gently over her spine from the base of her neck to her all the way down to her small of her back. Moving over her ass over to her waist and down her hip and back up again. She made a like humming noise and wiggled a little closer. I can feel her lips brush gently against my skin as she gently kisses just under my collar bone. 

I lift her chin and kiss her. She smiled into the kiss and allowed me to control it. We have never kissed like this before. Before our kisses have always been chaste and closed mouthed. This one is not. It is an intimate dance of lips and tongues. Rolling her over onto her back, deepening the kiss. Her arms come around my neck as I cover her body with mine. 

Sliding my hand up her bare thigh pushing her gown up. Her skin is a smoother as silk. Her legs wrapped around my waist was a new feeling for me just like everything else we were doing. This feels different to me. Kissing my way down her neck. Not sure I'm doing it right but the soft moans she is making is very encouraging. With a little growl I nibble on her ear and pulled away from her. 

Jungkook: Go back to sleep?
I grab a handful of her ass and squeeze.

Dana: How do you suggest I do that, with your hands all over the place.
I can feel her smile into my chest.

Jungkook: I wanted to know how you felt I didn't mean to wake you up. Rollover lets go to sleep. I'll big spoon.
Smiling I release her so she can get comfortable.

Dana: If you say so. Goodnight Kookie
Pulling her back closer to me.

Laying my hand on her belly and close my eyes. I feel her soft warm hands lay on mine. I know she can feel how hard I am, but she hasn't said anything about it. I know most woman don't like to be touched and left hanging like I just did her. Hell, most men don't like it either. I'm not sure I'm ready. I think I'll talk ti Tae tomorrow and see if he can help me.

A/N: Hello beautiful people. 🥰 It maybe a while before this is updated again, but I am going to make sure it's not too long. I am almost done with another story I am working on and it will be better then. I hope you enjoyed this update and be patient with me. Vote and comment let me know you think, I love to hear from ya'll. (❤'艸｀❤)