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Regret-7

                                     "there's always that one stupid mistake

                                                  that changes everything."

I woke up and felt something heavy on top of my stomach.And because of the pounding of my head.

I looked around and saw a boy next to me.A naked one.I looked under the blanket and saw that I was also naked.My eyes widen and panic built up in me.The boy next to me groaned and opened his eyes.He tilted his head up to see me.Oh my God.

"Nick?"I exclaimed as I hugged the blanket that was only covering me and him.

He stood up and my eyes widened.I screamed as he looked down.He grabbed his boxers and put them on just as the door slammed open and it revealed Nate.

His eyes widen.

"What the fuck?"he exclaimed as his eyes darted from me and back at Nick.

"Get out of here Nick,now!"he pointed out the door.

Nick grabbed all of his belongings and got out.Nate stared at me with a disgusted look on his face.

"What the heck Selina?"he yelled."What were you thinking?!"he yelled again.

"Why do you care Nathan?"I questioned him.

"Because you're my best friend,"he said.

Ouch.

"Just get out of here."I turned my head away.

"No.Not until you tell me why you had sex with him,"he said sternly.

"Why do you always have to act like you're my parents?You're just my friend Nathan,we don't have the same DNA whatsoever.So don't act like you're my family,"I spat at him.

The moment I said that his face had a pained expression,he shook his head.

"I'm sorry Selina,"he then left the room and closed the door behind him.

And then all the words that I've said to him suddenly hit me like a tidal wave.

I brought my knees up to my chest and hugged it.I rested my chin on my knees and let all the tears flow down.

All the tears of regret,anger,sadness,pain,and disgust.

I was disgusted because I let all of that happen.I let him take advantage of me being drunk.

I got up from my bed even though my head was still pounding.I went to my bathroom and took a bath the brushed my teeth.

I then stepped out of the bathroom and put on some gray joggers and white v-neck.I brush my wet hair then looked at myself in the mirror.

I look horrible without all those make-up.I had bags under my eyes and puffy eyes.I looked tired,well I am tired.

I'm tired of being a mess and I'm tired because of my nightmares,because of the pain.Tears were about to roll down my cheeks but I blinked them away.I'm too fragile.I don't want my last pieces to be broken again.I need to set things right with Nate.I need to apologize to all of the words that I've said to him.

I took deep breaths and finally went out of my room.I saw Nate on the couch,just staring into the space.I feel my chest tighten every time I took a step.I sat beside and cleared my throat.

He ignored it.

"Nate,can we please talk?"I asked him."Nate,please say something,"I was about to grab his hand when the doorbell rang.He stood up and went to go get it.