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J.W.

joe waud

Title: It's always been you

Warnings: sad idk

Requested: nuh

(based off of The Vampire Diaries)

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It was September. Cold and hot air mixed together gave me a rush. October was creeping around the corner and I was excited. It was my favorite time of the year. Scaring the kids and creppy movies.  It was also raining. Sadly. I hated rain. It was way to dreary and gray. But after every dark time rainbows would appear. I was eating chocolate and watching some random movie that my brother picked out. A knock came from my door and I rushed to opening, making myself presentable when I saw it was just jason. I open the door not even caring about what I looked like, I could be at my worst and he would tell me i looked the best. Thats why I loved him. I kissed him on the mouth pretty pasionatly. Someone cleared their throat from behind us. "Oh, sorry Joe. Didn't see you there."

"You never do." I met Joe first when we were young, but he and his brother moved away. they were back a couple years later and I fell in love with his twin. Sometimes it made me feel a little heartless. When Joe moved away, i was in love with him. But then i met jason and it all changed. Joe and I never talk about what was happening between us. 

I clear my throat looking back at Jason. "Did you need something?" 

"Not really, we were just walking by and i havent seen you in a while." he shrugged and i walked out side. we sat down on the grass, the boys on either side of me. Its not like awkward or anything between us, jason did't know and doesnt need to know. It feels like I cheated but were didn't even know each other, it's just something that doesn't matter. 

It was very quiet for some reason. The only sound were the group of kids that passed us, giving me weird looks adn the cars passing by. I sign laying back. I could see myself older, with kids and a house and family. a nice family and my husband. It looked like jason. Or joe. They were so simmilar in my imagination it was hard to choose. Yes, I still very much loved Joe, but i was with jason. "Do you maybe wanna go get ice cream?" i mumble not opening my eyes. "Well i can't." Jason says getting up, pulling me up as well. "I have a chem test tomarrow i need to study for." he kissed my cheek. "Go with Joe, bye baby!" I wave. 

and he was gone, and we were alone.

"Ice cream?" he nods and we head off in the other direction. It was a cliche little ice cream shop. Very vintage ya know. "What flavor are you going to get?" i ask trying to lighten the stiff mood. "Strawberry."

"Strawberry really, thats so boring." I joke opening the front door to the store so we could get inside. "Okay then what should i get?" i shrug and we set our stuff down (and by our stuff i meant my sweater and bag). 

"What are you going to get?" he nudges my shoulder from the other side of the booth. "Sherbert maybe. Or Rocky road. Maybe that oreo one." I look around a bit and giggle at the jukebox in the corner. I hadnt even noticed. "Go play a song," i point to the music player and he gets up bringing some money with him. He chooses a song. It's Elvis. "I can't help falling in love," i wisper. "m'lday, would you care to dance with me." before even thinking, i nod and take his hand. And now we were dancing.

His blue eyes looked so nice right now. Like a dark ocean and i'm drowing in it. I love him. 

No, i love Jason. Jason is the one for me yeah thats right. jason. Jason. Jason. But joe.. He's just wonderful. But i want Jason, Im with jason. I kept on having a mental battle with myself. Both my head and heart can't decide. My head says stay with Jason, you can't be in love with his twin. but it also says you've been in love with joe for years, make him yours. But my heart says i still love jason. My heart also says i've always been in love with Joe. Thankfully, the song was rather short and we broke apart. We made our way up to the older lady standing at the register. "You guys look so cute together."

"Were not together." i blush and look down. Joe says nothing but looks away. "Well you two would make a wonderful couple. How cliche could this day get. We order our ice cream and when we turn to look back, Jason was standing there with a bag in his hand. "what the hell was that?" I suck in a breath. How did we not notice he was there? "jason look," I set my hand on his shoulder but he shrugs ut off. everyone was looking at us. "just answer me honestly, do you love Joe?" not like. Love.

I didn't even know the answer. But i guess he took my silence as a yes. "Here. Happy almost anniversary." our one year anniversary was three days from now. He shoves the bag in my hand and storms out. its silent. I open the bag and inside were shirts, all of them had pressed on pictures of us. "oh gosh," i was crying. I don't know what to feel? what happens now? I turn to look at Joe but he was in front of me already. He pressed his lips aginst mine messily and I dropped the bag. my hands cup his cheeks, and his grab my waist bringing me even closer. "Do you love me?" he asked pulling away. I ran my fingers through his hair completly forgetting where we were. "yes."

"it's always been you."

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Words: 1000

idk if this even makes sense at all oops