✔️ Daddy | NAMJOON

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A/N: I recommend you that if you can't handle such as depressions and anxieties situation to not read this part because this chapter is filled with it but detailing (well kind of 😅) . Please skip this chapter if you can't handle any of this. It may affect you. Enjoy reading Bubs <3

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Two weeks passed by.

Namjoon have been very busy than usual, he would always get home late, he mostly skipped having breakfast and dinner with you.

You're really sad to see he didn't have any time for you, you really missed being in his arms everytime. Every time when he get days off, he will stay in his office doing his works until the next day. You would just cry in the bathroom, your anxiety makes yourself feel useless.

You are a hoe.

You are a slut.

You. Are. Not. Worth. It.

Kill yourself y/n. He is just using you, your anxiety said.

You cry, cry.. and cry for straight hours like every you do everyday. It keeps on happening. Your anxiety rarely never comes this long, but it do for now. You didn't know why you feel so emotional. You didn't know why you feel hurts. You're so hurt. This anxiety is killing your brain. It hits you right in your heart this time when it came. You never feel so much worthless before. It's hurting.

You don't cut yourself. You can't. Because it will make it more worse. But you thought this time, what will happen if I'm gone? People probably wouldn't mind right?

You went outside of the bathroom and took the small yellow box from one of the drawers that's beside Namjoon's bed with yours. You're sure not thinking straight this time.

You hold the mini cutter in your right hand, which is facing your left back arm. Nearing the cutter to your arm, you cut your wrist lightly. A smile appear on your face when you see the bloods dropping. You have cut yourself three times, it did bleeding sure it will leave scars on your wrist. You breaking down once again into sobs, mumbling to yourself recklessly with such negative words again that's meant for you.

The door cracked open, a Namjoon that's stretching his neck to the side. His eyes widened when it finally stuck on your crying figure, your bleeding left wrist and to the mini sharp cutter which is on bed.

"Y/N!" he shouted, running to you.

"Baby! What have you done!?" He asked you, holding your bleeding left wrist.

He shook you but you didn't respond any movement. He cup your cheeks to face him. He met with your swallow eyes, red nose, red cheeks and shaking lips. "I'm sorry.." you mumbled, crying.

Namjoon is so speechless to what is happening. He took the first aid kit from below the bed. Taking the cottons, cleaning your bloods off. "I'm sorry.." your voiced cracked between the sobs.

"I'm a burden.. I'm sorry I exist.. I'm sorry.. I'm emotional.. I'm sorry that I'm worthless.." you mumbled to him who's looking at you with tears falling down to his cheeks when each and every single words that escaped from you lips.

He shook his head no, he hug you. "Stop saying that, I love you, you should know that. I'll never forgive myself to what I have been causing now. I'm sorry, cupcake. I'm sorry I didn't know or even take a glance that you're hurting.. I'm sorry." He whispered to you, brushing his fingers to your hair. You sobs in his arms, hugging him closer to you as your sobs make you unstably breathless. Every thing went black.

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"She's having anxiety since a while before today, it seems like these anxiety has been going through her since more than a week ago. She's stressing a lot and depressing too. She will woke up later or maybe tomorrow morning, she should be okay," said Jin who's giving you his last check on you.

"I know you didn't have the chance to spend times with her since the five projects you have been working on Namjoon, but don't get too hard to yourself. You even look unhealthy, have you even eat? No, you haven't. This always happens to you and I noticed it." Jin scolded him, looking at him again with disappointment written on his face.

"I'll get going now," he said getting up from the chair beside the bed you're laying on.

"Thank you, Jin Hyung." Namjoon thanked Jin.

"It's my job taking care of you guys, but please eat Joon, and don't forget to remind y/n to eat the medicine and drink more water, she's also less hydrated." Namjoon nodded at Jin who's worry at the both of you conditions.

After a couple of minutes, Jin left.

Namjoon sat beside you on the bed. He looked at your bandaged wrist, giving it a light kiss and he then kisses your forehead.

He intertwined his left fingers with your right one, he looked down, putting your back hand on his forehead, having deep thoughts.

Your eyes slowly opened, looking at your position and Namjoon's. You moved your hand away from Namjoon's forehead, you brush your fingers through his hair which made him looking up at you, you smile meeting with his cute orbs eyes.

"I-I'm sorry, cupcake. I'm sorry for my actions now days, I'm sorry I didn't tell you about the projects, I'm sorry I fucked up," he said in between of his light sobs. You sat up, facing him. "It's fine baby, I'm just.. depressing myself a lot, I should be sorry, I'm sorry I make you cry," you said, caressing his cheeks with both of your hands, brushing your thumbs against it.

"Please. Please, promise me you'll not cut yourself, ever again." He said, you nodded slowly.

He smiles till his dimples shows off, he snuggle himself on you, sobbing onto your neck. You could hear light sobs and sniffs from him. You keep on shushing him softly, gently petting him with his hair.

You chuckled to yourself when you heard light snores from down your neck, yourself sleep off to your dreamland that night with Namjoon.

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A/N: Today's chapter is quite short but surely it surpassed more than a thousand words at least. I'm just feeling this kind of feelings, I have been listening single loop to 'tata mcrae - one day' today while writing this. This songs does hits ngl but I really hope you guys didn't feel sad like myself today, but if you do I'll be here to cheer you up! Cheer up! You're beautiful in who or what you are. You're beautiful. Have you know or hear something amazing today? You're shiny Bub! And I love you for being you. Thank you Bub! Don't forget to VOTE! I'll be going now, see everyone in the next chapter! I love every single of you Bubs! Adios, yeehaw! 🤠🥰💜💜💜💜💜💜💜✨✨✨✨✨✨✨