Greaser Girl (very bad writing)

Chapter Tweleve

We walk into the house I go to my room but Darry stop me. "Lils why did your teacher say you had a panic attack?" He sounded soft but also serious I looked at home in my I'm saying because I saw Tyler he raped me but instead I say, "I don't know." He looked at me" Lils please just tell me." I looked at him again "I can't"

"What do you mean you can't," he said in a soft tone

"I just can't"

"Lillian I need to know so I can help you," he said kinda mad

I started crying, "Dar I just can't okay"

"Lillian Rose please I want to help you," he said while standing up.

I didn't know what to do I just ran into my room but Darry caught me he looked sad confused angry I pulled my arm away and ran into my room and locked the door. He knocked but I said go away he listened and went. I got mad at myself I pulled out my blade and cut myself deep but not too deep two for having a panic attack three for getting caught and four for Darry trying to talk to me about it and two for almost yelling in all I had 11 times. I clean up my cuts and put a band-aid on it. I laid on my bed and eventually falling asleep

*Around Five p.m*

Darry POV

Lils still hasn't come out of her room. The whole gang is here and dinner is almost ready.

"Dinner" I called out. I walk to Lil's door and knocked I didn't hear an answer so I opened it. I saw Lils asleep that the first time I actually looked at her I mean I looked at her but like she looked scared and sad she looked so skinny and pale. I went over to her and woke her up. She looked confused at first then realized me there. She quickly covers her wrist for some reason than looked at me. "Dinner"

"I'm not hungry," she said tried.

"Lils you haven't eaten in a few days and even that you haven't had a good meal"

She looked like she was thinking she turned to me," fine" she got up and went to the dining room to sit she sat between Johnny and Ponyboy.

Lillian POV 🌹

I sat between Pony and Johnny I wasn't hungry or that's what I'm telling myself I was honestly starving. I ate a couple of bites before I was going to be sick. I just sat there staring at my plate thinking. Soda and Steve were talking about cars. Two-Bit and Dally were talking about a blonde chick they meet the other day. Johnny and Pony having a conversation about a book. Darry finally spoke, "Lils you okay?"

I didn't move hopefully if he didn't think I heard him he would drop it. He didn't though. "Lils?" He got the attention of the rest of the gang. They looked concerned and got up from the table a went into my room. I heard the gang come to my door. "Lils please open the door" I heard Pony said. I didn't say anything I just pack a bag quickly for things I'm going to need tomorrow tonight I'm just going to go to on the treehouse. I sneak out my window and left to go to the treehouse.

Sodapop POV 🥤

I got a paper clip from the drawer from the kitchen and gave it to the Pony. He unlocks her door and she was gone her window was open but she was gone. Darry went into her room looked in her closet and everything he could think of her being there. He got up and told us to go looking for her anywhere you could think of.

Lillian POV 🌹

I went to the old treehouse again. Got my iPhone 6 put headphones in and now listening to Queen and got a cancer stick and just thought. If I told Darry what happens with Tyler what would happen and when will he finally say something about the weed or if he found out about the cuts on my arm me not eating me wanting to kill myself. I heard someone calling my name it was Darry I kept quiet not wanting to make a sound. I know he knows about the treehouse we went up here all the time when we were little but does he think I would be up here. After that, I heard someone coming up the ladder. I knew that there is no escape now. I take off the headphones and burn out the cigarette. His head pops up and looked at me his eyes filled with concern and worries he saw me and climb all the way up.

He first takes out his phone and I look over his shoulder.

He then looked at me and gave me a hug he was about to cry. I let go and sat straight in front of him "Lils would care to tell me what going on?" I looked at him and back I started to tear up."Okay but you promise not to cut me off"

"okay"

"Okay well ummmm well I don't know how to come out and say it but like ummmmm I uhh I just feel ughhhhhhh I feel empty like something is wrong with me I'm never going I will be happy I don't know I just I don't want live anymore I just want to not live I feel like a burden like I'm just a problem in everyone's lives. And I decided to stop eating and really caring" I was now uncontrollably sobbing. Darry looked at me and was softly crying he looked at me.

"When did you start to feel like this?"

" When mom and dad died"

He looked at me than my wrist, "Do you self harm"

"Ummmmm yeah"

"Can I see it please"

I pull up my sleeves and reveal my wrist he tokes them softly. He then let go and hug me.

"Let's go back to the house the gang is waiting for us you can go to your room but I have to tell the gang okay"

"Okay"

*When Darry and Lillian got home*

Darry POV

Lillian went to her room straight away. I looked over to the gang. I sat down in my chair and started to tell them everything Lils just told me.