Finding Love - A Kate & Leo Fanfiction

Chapter 2

Everything was alright in my life until that one day. That one day that I've always been afraid of. This can happen to all of us, I know that. And you neither know if it ever happens, nor do you know when it happens.

It was a beautiful day. I didn't expect anything special to happen.

Bear was spending the weekend at his grandparents'.

I had just finished cleaning the kitchen and I sat down in the living room, when Ned came to me. He looked worried. "There's something I have to tell you.", he said. I stood up and walked towards him. I took his hands. "You can tell me anything", I said while looking in his eyes. He told me to sit down and he stood in front of me taking a deep breath. "Kate, I slept with Eliza.", he said with an expression on his face that I'd never seen before. "You did what?", I asked, my voice was trembling and it was only a whisper. I just couldn't believe it. I felt tears appearing in my eyes. "Yes I did.", he said. Now with pity in his eyes. "And I'm sorry." "You're sorry?!", I said angrily, tears streaming down my face, "You slept with your ex-wife and now all you can say is that you're sorry?!" I stood up from the couch. "What do you want me to say? Is there anything else but apologising that I could do? Is there anything that excuses this?", he said while staring at me like I was a fool. "There is no excuse for this, Ned!", I yelled. "And there's nothing else you could do! But the reason why I'm so angry about your 'excuse' is that I told you, severeal times, that I have already been cheated on and I also told you that cheating is something I can't bear in a relationship!", My voice was still trembling but I kept yelling at him. With a softer voice I continued: "So if you really love me, if our relationship really means something to you, please tell me: why did you do it? Why did you sleep with her?", I wanted a proper answer. He hesitated. I could see in his eyes that he didn't know what to say. Then he finally answered my question: "I don't know, darling. I was stupid. She's young and she fell in love with me again." "What is that supposed to mean?! Do you want to say I'm old? Do you think I don't love you anymore? Because if you do there's something I have to tell y... " "Kate, darling, ...", he said but I interrupted him: "Don't you dare call me 'darling' or 'babe' or something like that ever again! And now let me finish: I love you, but you ripped my heart out of my chest, chopped it into pieces and then put it back in again.", I said crying even heavier. "But I never meant to do that, Kate." "But you did!", I yelled. "You used my love for you against me and now look at us. Look at us and tell me we can keep on living like we did before. Before you slept with that tramp!", I fell down on the couch, sobbing and looking for a tissue, but I couldn't find one. "She's not a tramp!", he defended his ex-wife. "See? We can't keep on living together like we did before.", while I said that my world seemed to break apart. "Why not?", Ned asked confused. "Two simple reasons: the first one is because you love her too much to love me! The second one is because I can't bear cheating in a relationship.", I didn't have much power left to say that. I was exhausted by the situation. "How do you know that I love her?", He looked down at me. He didn't understand a word of what I said. "You defended her. I think you wouldn't have done that, if you didn't love her. "Now what?", He asked me. I sighed. "It's over. You'll have to move out.", It wasn't easy for me saying something like that. It made me sob even harder "But what about our family? What about our son?" "You should have thought about the consequences before you did that mistake. Bear will live with me." He couldn't believe what I was saying. "But he's my son, too!" "But he will grow up living with his mother, wheter you like it or not. Whenever he wants to see you, he can do that.", I told him. I never wanted any of my children to grow up without their fathers but it happened to all of them. Just because I can never make my relationships work. "And where am I supposed to live?", he asked me. I shouldn't have felt sorry for him but I did. I tried to hide it: "I bet that tramp you cheated on me with will let you live with her, if she loves you so much!" We kept staring at each other for a long time. Anger and pity all at once in his eyes and tears streaming down my face. "I guess there's nothing left to say, is there?", he asked. He obviously didn't bank on these consequences. "Just one thing.", I said, "I want you to move out now."