Redesigning Love

Chapter Seven ~ Some Harsh Desissions

Some Harsh Decisions

Renessme Pov

“Maybe you love to play this game Leah but I am sorry I am not going to be a part of it anymore…you can have Jacob all to yourself”

I said with bitterness and being a little sarcastic in my tone and walked away in the woods. I was heading towards the place that I called my home for this many years and thought that I had behaved a little harsh with Leah but well no one could accept me to behave sugary at this point of time. It seemed that I lost all that I had, the world around me was completely fake, the people around me were just few bunch of great actors. I had no one to call my own now; I just realized that I was not even wanted here neither by my family nor by my best friend, I realized I had reached the driveway of the “Cullen Mansion”, I headed inside taking slow and nervous steps, I fought back the tears in my eyes. I was aware that dad could read my mind and my judgment about him might hurt him but he was the one who has hurt me beyond repair. I stepped inside as I saw my wailing mother being comforted by my aunts, my dad facing two and fro angrily in the room, my grandpa and grandma trying to pacify him, my uncles looking lost at the window with fear and anger filled in their eyes and there was Jacob the person whom I hated the most standing with his body curdled up in his arms and his head buried in his palm. I walked inside as all the eyes were drawn towards me, but ignoring them all I walked up to my mother whose condition was pitiful if there was someone whom I really loved and wanted near me it was my mother, my savior the only person who wanted to give me life. I kneeled in front of her as she looked at me with her eyes full of tears; I held my palm against her icy cold cheek but did not show her anything maybe because I did not have anything to show her. I said in a soft voice forcing a smile

“I am back mom, please stop crying now”

She looked at me and the other moment I felt her knocking my breath out with a tight hug, I hugged her back as I smiled sensing the calmness in her. She cupped my face, looked into my eyes and said in a soft tone

“Renessme, we wanted you, we did not want to kill you baby, we love you”

My face turned firm again as I said removed her hands and turned towards everyone and said in a firm tone

“Not we mom only you wanted me, only you wanted to save me and only you love me”

That was a time when I realized everyone had gathered around me including Jacob, a person whom I had no interest even seeing his face. I clenched my teeth in anger at the sight on him, his eyes spoke loudly an urge to hug me but by my behavior and coldness he was frozen in his position. Suddenly I heard some speaking from the crowd

“No Baby we all love you and wanted you here, but it was just some circumstances that lead us to be this way”

I looked at the direction great it was Mr Edward Cullen my mother‘s husband. I did not want to shout it loud to him so I just communicated in my best way via thoughts; I actually had nothing to tell him, what would I accuse him off for wanting to kill me? But that is the only thing I can accept from a Blood Sucking Monster, a person who could leave my mom call broken and scattered, he could do the same thing to me. I hated him and I hated myself more for loving him and appreciating him, tagging him as the best dad, indeed I am a hybrid as only today I came to know that I have a heart cause I can feel it broken. I looked at my dad he did not say anything; he stood still looking blankly at my eyes. His lips were sealed together as his face went completely pale. I removed my eyes from his as I wished my mom goodnight, no one else dared to speak anything to me as they knew my anger would burst upon them, they hoped me to calm a little and then talk to me. As for my dad he just looked blankly at me, I was climbing up the stair when I felt a warm grip on my wrist. I turned to see it was Jacob; he was on the entrance of the stairs as he said to me with tears brimming from his eyes