pretty girls like drug dealers | blueface | completed

i can't help it

Ava Pov

*earlier that night*

Cam was kissing on my neck while he massaged my boobs trying to get me in the mood. For some reason, I just wasn't feeling it.

We were supposed to be watching a movie, but I knew that was a lie when he asked me. When his hand started to trail down to my tights, I faked a laugh and pushed his hand away as I said, "Cam stop. Let's finish watching the movie."

"Forget that movie. I wanna watch you riding me" he said.

Wait on it. I thought. I had no desire to have sex with him right now.

"Cmon" he said rubbing on my thigh. "You know you want to."

See, the thing about Cam is that he's lame as hell to me. His dick is great, tongue amazing, but when he opens his mouth to speak, I'm instantly turned off.

Once when we were having sex, he referred to himself as "big daddy Cam." He literally said to me, "You like big daddy Cam dick huh?" I'm not sure who told him that was a turn on, but they lied their ass off.

I glanced at my phone clock seeing that the small group of people Cam had invited over would be arriving soon.

"Your friends are almost here. Maybe we should start getting things ready" I suggested.

"Get what ready? We're just going to talk shit all night." He looked at me like he was annoyed. "If you don't want to have sex just say that."

I've been saying that all night you dumbass I said in my head.

"I did. Multiple times." I said with a slight attitude.

He shook his head before getting off the couch and going in the kitchen.

I should've cursed him out, but for the last two weeks I've been working on being nicer towards people. My family especially.

I apologized to my parents for being a shitty daughter recently, and they happily accepted my apology. Do I still hate my school? Yes. Do I wish we would've never moved? Of course. But the my sister was right. The least I could do is show some gratitude.

So I've been smiling at breakfast, laughing at dinner, and even doing Lauren's eyebrows without having to be blackmailed.

My mom is happy, my dad is ecstatic and all is well in the Reed household. It's actually not that bad. I don't think I realized how much I enjoy my family.

I was drawn out of my thoughts by the sound of breaking glass in the kitchen. I got up to go see what it was, and saw Cam sweeping up the pieces from a broken flower vase.

"Your mama gonna be pissed" I said watching him dump the glass in the trash can.

"She won't care. It was the ugly one" he said checking to see if there was more glass on the floor. When he was sure he got it all, he walked over to me pulling me into a hug.

"I'm sorry" he said simply.

"You keep apologizing for doing the same things" I replied. "I don't understand why you get so mad when I don't wanna have sex."

"Because that's how I connect with you" he said. "It's how I show my feelings. You know I'm bad with words."

"Still though. Does that mean I don't have the right to say no?"

He looked at me intently before he said, "I love you."

I froze. No the hell you don't, I thought. I didn't know how to respond. I definitely didn't love him and that's not something I'd be willing to lie about.