A Little Rough Around the Edges

Admitting To The Addiction

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~Speeches~

"Talking to one's self/ Talking aloud"

'Thinking to one's self'

Flashback

~Warning~

This story contains transphobia, self harm, abuse, lgtbq+, and swearing, if you are uncomfortable or sensitive to any of this, I suggest you don't read this story.

Chapter 10: Admitting To The Addiction

Denki's Pov:

I walked back down to the kitchen to get some food.

I walked in and saw three people already sitting at the table.

Mina, Bakugo, and Sero were all sitting and chatting away happily. I went over to the counter and cupboards, looking for something to eat.

I finally decided on eating some toast. I made my meal and got something to drink. I went and sat at the kitchen table and silently ate my breakfast. I was still thinking about what happened with Shinso, so I wasn't really talking much.

I guess the others noticed that I was being a lot more silent than usual, so they started questioning me about it.

"Hey you good, you've hardly eaten anything, and you usually scarf everything down as fast as you can?" Sero asked, snapping me out of my thoughts.

"huh?, Oh yeah, I'm fine just thinking about something." I replied.

Mina looked at me and smirked, I couldn't help but feel like she knew something she shouldn't.

"Could you be thinking about something to do with the fact that I saw you come out of Shinso's dorm room this morning, before anyone else was awake?" She asked, wiggling her eyebrows at me. 

And confirmed, she knew something she shouldn't.

I'm pretty sure my face went brighter than a tomato. I was so embarrassed. I didn't think anyone saw me this morning!

"Maybeeee" I replied, looking anywhere but my friends eyes.

"I KNEW IT!!!!" Mina shouted.

"Shut up!!! Someone might hear you!!" I said urgently, silently hoping no one heard her. She only chuckled in response.

"Oooohh look" Sero said teasingly, while pointing towards the door to the kitchen.

I looked over and my breath hitched. Just my luck. There was Shinso, walking into the kitchen and over to the coffee machine. He looked over and locked eyes with me. I blushed even deeper, if that was even possible, and looked away quickly.

Shinso got his coffee, than walked over to us and joined as at the table. I panicked on the inside. And of course, he decided to sit next to me.

A while in to the conversation, Mina and Sero were arguing over which type of cheese was better. 

Shinso leaned over to me and whispered in my ear; "Are they always like this?"

"Sadly yes" I whispered back. He chuckled at my response.

We ate and talked with everyone else. I ended up having a lot more fun than I thought I would. Though that might be because Shinso was sitting with us.

After breakfast I went back up to my room. I was still tired so I decided to take a nap. 

~Dream~

I sat alone in a cold basement. I was hungry, I couldn't remember the last time I ate. I also knew that I wasn't getting food any time soon.

The door swung open and in came my drunk mother. I'll be perfectly honest, that woman terrified me half to death.

She walked up to me and the first thing she did was slap me across the face. That was not the first time she had slapped me, but it still hurt.

She continued to beat me until pretty much my whole body was numb. 

I continuously cried for her to stop, but that only made it worse on my part.

~End of Dream~

I woke up in a cold sweat. I was crying as well. 

I wanted to take the pain away, and what better way to do that then to cut.

'But it's the middle of the day, so I have to be careful.' I thought.

Usually when I cut I pass out right after.

I walked into the bathroom and sat on the floor. I got my secret razor out of my mattress and started.

I watched as the blood flowed from my wrists. 

I'm not exactly sure how long I sat there. I sat there for a good amount of time though, I knew that.

I was suddenly pulled from my trance-like episode when a small voice said, "K-kami?"

Shinso's Pov:

I was sitting in my desk, in the classroom with the rest of the class. I wasn't really listening, that is until dad said my name. 

"Shinso, do you know where Kaminari is?" He asked.

"No I don't, sorry sir." It felt really weird to call my father sir.

"Okay, well can you go look for him please. This is an important lesson, he really shouldn't miss it." He asked.

"Yeah sure." With that, I got up and out of my seat.

I walked all over looking for Denki, until I reached the last place he might be, his room. Which in hind sight, I probably should have checked there first, but oh well.

I knocked a couple of times, only to get no answer. I heard some rustling within the room, so I knew he was in there.

I decided to just go in.

Looking back on that decision, I am so glad I did.

I walked into his small dorm room. I looked around cautiously. When I couldn't find him I decided to look in the bathroom.

I walked over to where his bathroom was. The door was slightly ajar. I peaked around the corner, and what I saw broke my heart.

Denki was sitting on the bathroom floor, a razor in hand, and blood running down his arms.

He smiled ever so slightly, barely even enough for me to notice, if I wasn't already watching his face I wouldn't have.

It looked like he was in some sort of trance. I decided to speak up.

"K-kami?"