A Little Rough Around the Edges

Acceptance And A Panic Attack

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~Speeches~

"Talking to one's self/ Talking aloud"

'Thinking to one's self'

Flashback

~Warning~

This story contains transphobia, self harm, abuse, lgtbq+, and swearing, if you are uncomfortable or sensitive to any of this, I suggest you don't read this story.

Chapter 8: Acceptance And A Panic Attack

Dekni's Pov:

To say I was shocked that Shinso of all people wanted and was hugging me, would be an understatement. I was scared at first when he came into the room and I realized he probably heard my parents yelling at me. But after I explained a little and he said he accepted me, I calmed down quite a lot. But I wasn't completely calm.

I was still scared he would tell other people about me being trans. I didn't want to loose more friends than I already have.

"Hey are you okay after that?" Shinso asked. 

"H-huh? Ohh yeah I-I'm fine"

"Do you not want me to tell other people about what happened here? Because if that's the case I will keep my mouth shut." He responded. I was shocked that he was willing to keep this a secret. But I was very happy too.

"If you would, that would be great thanks." I answered. I calmed down a lot more than before, knowing that he wouldn't tell people about me being trans. 

"How about we go back to the rest of your friend group, yeah?" He asked.

"Ok"

We walked back to my friends. They all looked at me questioningly, "Hey where'd your parents go?" Kiri asked.

"oh they had to go back to work."

"It's like 7:00 p.m., and they have to work?" 

"U-uh yeah they have night shifts." I rubbed the back of my neck nervously. 

"Ok well how about we go eat." Mina said, noticing how uncomfortable I was with the questions.

"Yeah let's go. What are we having again, I can't remember."

~Time Skip To After Dinner~

I saw Shinso leave the table, I then left to catch up with him.

"Hey Shinso, I just wanted to thank you one more time for not telling everyone about my parents and me being trans. Is there anyway I could make it up to you?"  I asked once we were out of ear shot form the rest of the class.

"No problem, and I don't really think- actualy there is something you could do to make it up to me." He responded.

"I'll do anything, what is it?"

"Come talk to me more often." He said nervously.

"What do you mean?"

"Yeah come talk to me so we can become better friends." He said.

I smirked, "I thought you didn't want friends?" 

"Don't make me change my mind." He said firmly.

"Okay okay, I'll stop teasing you. But anyway, sure I'll come and talk to you more often if that's what you want."

He smiled and continued walking to the elevator. He stopped and turned toward me, "Hey why don't you come and watch a movie with me, after all it is the weekend, so let's enjoy it for awhile." He said.

I was shocked, but I was aslo equally happy. I smilled real wide and jogged to catch up to him.

Shinso's Pov:

I was watchinga movie with Denki Kaminari. I was also watching a movie with the first real friend I had ever had. Not something I imagined happening at my time at UA high scool. But hey, life brings the unexpected. 

I was still tyring to comprehend the fact that Kaminari was a trans male. It was hard to ajust because I had known him as a male this whole time. 

None the less I will treat him the same because he is still the same person and I accept him for him. After all he was my first friend, and I wasn't going to just give up on him like that.

I was actually having a lot of fun with him. We really weren't watching the movie at this point, we were just talking nonsense. I still enjoyed it though.

When the movie finally ended, we sat talking for another hour or so. I looked at the clock. It  was almost midnight.

"I think I'm going to go and try to get some sleep." Kaminari said.

"Yeah that's a good idea. I think I will to. Good night"

"Night."

After he left I sighed and got up to change. I laid down in my bed and eventually fell asleep.

Denki's Pov:

I walked back to my dorm. As soon as I went in side, the realization hit me. 'What is he doesn't keep his word? What if he tells everybosy about me and my parents, and then all me friends leave me again.' I started hyperventialating before I could stop my self.

I slowly sank to the floor in desperation of slowing my breathing. I needed to take the pain away, but Mr. Aizawa took all my razor blades.

'..Wait, didn't I have a couple hidden in my mattress? I think I did.' I smiled remebering that was a way I could still take the pain away.

I crawled over to my matress and searched for my blades. It took awahile to locate one but I finallt did.

'I can take all the pain away, ..if only for a moment.'

I got up and walked over to my bathroom, the last thing I needed was for my blood to stain the dorm's carpet.

Once in the bathroom, I slowly sat on the floor and brought the knife to my wrist. I dragged the knife over it a few time before I decided I should probably stop and go to sleep. 

I wiped off the blood that was flowing down my arm, wrapped my wrist in bandages and walked over to my bed. I put the blade back in the mattress, and went to change. 

After changing I laid down in my bed and stared at the ceiling, waiting for something to happen.