Ashton's P.O.V :
*****NEXT DAY*******
It was driving me crazy my imagination my mind my thoughts..........
Everything I just needed to scream look at my self in the mirror and say it just say it....but I can't ..... it's like when your trying to tell someone something, you know exactly what your going to say, but when you go to say, it your mouth doesn't seem to work ,it decides to give up and it takes a lot of effort to push out the words you had planned saying all along........
It was literally just 2 small words .....I can say I'm gay in my mind ,but when I go to say it I can't......
" Yeh no me and Ash first met when everyone was making fun of me for wearing these totally cool luminous green fluorescent glasses and he stood up for me, right Ash?"
I jumped when hearing my name called , oh yeh that's right we were in an interview for kiss .. ironic huh?
"I ugh... yeh I thought they were pretty cool."
Nailed it! * mentally fist pumps air*
The day carried on like so, me zoning in and out not joining in on conversations unless I was addressed to speak.
I tried my best to stay focused at the topic on hand, rehearsals we were in the O2 in London doing rehearsals for our show tomorrow and the following two days.
" Like normal the first is 'What I Like About You ' then it's SLSP , Amnesia , Voo Doo doll ,Where Ever You Are , Miss all American we talk after what I like about you Voo Doo doll and before our intermission that's the first half we can run throw the 2nd half when we're finished " Luke said through the microphone this place is huge causing his voice to echo to the pretty much empty arena.
"Ready?" He asked "Yup" "Sure" Cal and Michael said .
"Ashton? " "What? Yeh?" "You ready ?" " Oh right yeh sorry! "
Let's leave all my anger out guys....
"1...2...3..4!" I shouted
* 3 hours later*
A few hours later after 3 broken drum sticks and a few missing of notes here and there we were finished and off to the bus where I was in no way up for any socialisation and planned on locking my self in the bathroom for some peace and quiet.
You probably think I'm overreacting but seriously take my brain for a day trust me the way my brain works is in no way normal towards anyone else's capacity for example when I say this I really should be looking in a mirror.
Are you insinuating that I should tolerate this diabolical insubordination from this individual who's brain capacity barely exceeds that of a lima bean.
In simple terms I calling some one stupid...thats why I need a mirror.....
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