I say, "I'm sorry"
Those words don't mean a thing
Don't say you love me
Those words still have a sting
So many problems
Keep seeping through my mask
And all these orange bottles in my head
They never seem to last
I'm fucking sober
But I'm smoking, music loud
Those nights are over
I dig them from the ground
Chugging tequila
My eyesight disappears
And it kills me to admit it
But the only decent part of me is dead
I'm drowning in a rainbow made of pills and I'm about to crash again
I didn't see the blade, but now my skin is slashed
I can't stop the bleeding
Might as well open the gash
Stoned and barely breathing
I've nearly broken in half
Hate myself
You'll learn to hate me
All of the blood tastes the way that I feel
And I feel like I don't deserve love
Ten thousand memories
Fly by as barely ghosts
They're never friendly
Emotions they invoke
Things I remember
Lone benders in the dark
Every scar I have is open
And the memories are scaring me to death
I'm drowning in a rainbow made of pills and I'm about to crash again
I know what love is like although it never lasts
I can't stop the bleeding
Or all the panic attacks
On my knees and pleading
So sad that I have to laugh
Hate myself
And hate to feel love
Love is the thing that could stitch up my wrists
Still, it feels like I don't deserve love
I don't deserve you
I don't deserve a thing
Maybe I'll pull through
But I deserve the pain
I don't deserve love
I don't deserve a touch
I'm a bug
I don't deserve love
I don't deserve the luck
I feel the blood rush
I'm spilling all the blood
I don't deserve love
And I can't clot the blood
Let it flood
I can't stop the bleeding
Stoned and knocked onto my ass
Flames my blood is feeding
Threaten to burn me to ash
Hate myself
I hate the bleeding
I don't know why I'm still acting this way
All I know is I don't deserve love
Yeah, I know that I don't deserve love
Washed in blood, I'll let it all flood
Bathed in blood 'cause I don't deserve love
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Stepping on the Devil's Tail
PoetryA collection that covers a wide variety of topics, yet I try to make it seem at least a little cohesive. Some of these are pretty wild. Lots of madness and death and end-of-the-world-type shit going on. I can't imagine why that kinda stuff has been...
