The struggles of being a bisexual

IM BACKKKKKKKK

i can't believe it's been a year so much has happened it's literally crazy.
THIS YEAR WAS SO MUCH BETTER. to follow up with the old shit a month or two ago i finally talked to my old bully abt what he did and he apologized and was being foreal.
but this year was really fucking weird. the year started good i had my first kiss and i finally got a good friend group. i started having a thing with this guy but he ended up being kinda toxic i learned i wasn't ready for anything sexual AND THE FUNNIEST THIS IS EVEN NOW i'm like am i bi or asexual lmfao swear to god. that started in october i think.
also abt the first kiss it was funny cuz he used to make fun of me for liking brockhampton and the day it happened i went to their concert and i have a picture with kiko idk if any of u know what i'm talking abt ( not gate keeping i j don't know what y'all are into) anyway then i realized later the kid is literally an asshole. and cheated on one of my friends
not to mention throughout the year my depression got really bad and would come back every time it calmed down lol during quarantine i actually got diagnosed and had an examination and it was cool
i hate the fact that i needed other people's validation for my problems to be real like j. but it felt nice to label my problems with like abuse cuz it's not all physical but now i feel happy i have a therapist that i talk to IF YOU GUYS HAVE AN OPPORTUNITY TO GET IT DOOO IT. it helps soo fuxking much i couldn't get it forever cuz i'm kinda not rich and then we found out we could get it through a school program. so that's nice.
but anyway also this part is älL a jøKę
weed is beautiful and february was an amazing time if you guys want all my stories abt that like or comment.
i'm hanging out w this girl in 3 days i'm kinda in love w her let's see how that goes :D
i feel like my therapist kinda sucks tho cuz she's like through my county and idk i feel like i always have to explain myself like my problems aren't real it's really weird. it's also over the phone so that's really annoying.
i'm kinda having an episode so school is really hard i can't do my hw and i haven't paid attention in 2 weeks so i'm gonna give it a month maybe i'll start feeling better and yeah.
i started watch anime again i used to when i was young. i really want a crunchy roll cuz using websites is annoying on my phone.
and i started making jewelry lmk if u guys want that @
love u guys i'll keep u updated PLEASE COMMENT when i was a big reader on here i never liked or commented cuz i thought someone would find me but i just want to talk to y'all please <33333 one girl commented like 3 years ago and we've been friends for that long hahahaha