Quarantine Boys

Part 4: Wait Till Morning

I didn't even realize that he sent me a snap. I had been thinking and crying for about three minutes. It takes a lot to make me cry so when I did, I knew that he really affected me.

I open it. I don't really feel anger or sadness anymore. Those few tears and the message I sent to him must have really helped me, even though it may have been little. He sent a video back. I open it and just hear him say "I really don't want to bug you anymore and bring up anymore past rage that you have towards me. I hope that you will be able to truly forgive me one day."

I left the bih on read. I'm just like wow. Like how could I have let that dude ruin my night. Let's just go over the emotions I felt- anger, confusion, sadness, and attraction. I understood the ones except for attraction. Like do I think that he is just physically attractive(yes) or do I actually find him trying to get forgiveness for his actions attractive. I mean I'm not really angry now. I just wanna have dinner now.

I go downstairs to my parents. They are watching TV so I just walk pass them to the kitchen. Also, keep in mind that my parents know that I am gay. They also sometimes watch my live-streams. As soon as I go into the kitchen my mother says, "How was your live tonight?"
"It was good but I ended earlier then usual. I just didn't feel like talking much tonight."
She nodded and I went into the kitchen.

My mom and dad are really fine with me doing the live-streams. They know that by me talking about certain topics, I am just getting some emotion out, which is very true. I eat some spaghetti. At least I was able to distract myself with food. Then I go back upstairs. This boy really decides to send me another snap. I'm just going to wait to open it in the morning....