Self Control

Chapter 2

Leo's Pov

I was sitting on my bed, back against the wall and hugging my knees to my chest, my arms were on top of my knees and my head was resting on my arms, trying my best not to shed tears. All I could think about was how Splinter lied to me, to us, why would he do that, how could he do that. I've been living with him for 9 YEARS but not ONCE has he thought about telling me that I'm actually the youngest.

I didn't know HOW to feel, upset, angry? My breathing started to quicken, then I heard a knock on the door. I wanted to answer it but I was paralyzed, and it was getting harder and harder to breathe. I lifted my head up and uncontrollable tears started running down my cheeks. I then heard another knock but I still was unable to move.

Right then it hit me I was having a panic attack, hyperventilating in other words. It wasn't anything new because I did that a lot, not all the time though, and usually one of my brothers would be here to calm me down, but I locked my door. All I can do is sit here and wait, for one of my brothers to show up, since I can't move. Then the knocking started up again.

Donnie: "Leo?"

Leo: "..."

Mikey: "come on dude, can you please come out?"

Leo: "..."

Donnie: "Leo? Leo are you okay!?"

Leo: "..."

Raph: "that's it! Were coming in!"

Leo: "..."

Raph's Pov

It took a couple of trys but eventually I kicked the door down and walked into the room first, at first I didn't see my older- I mean little brother, but then I heard crying and decided to follow the sound and found Leo sitting on his bed back against the wall, he was having a painc attack. I did my best to calm him down, and it worked in the end, but he was still crying though.

I felt bed for him, but I had a couple of questions like: will I be leader now, will Leo be ok being youngest, should we talk with Master Splinter and will things change between us brothers?

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