Staring (Nj Boys)

Im sorry but I love him.

"Mattia? Is that you?" You asked into the phone "yeah y/n? What's wrong?" He said sounding really tired "i- I think that I'm in l-" you tried saying in the phone "how are you and Kairi?" He asked "oh... we are great." You said. Looking down. "Nice! I'm really happy for you guys. You deserve each other." Mattia said into the phone doubting himself. "Yeah... alright I have to go.." you said into the phone you looked down at the ground and small tears came out. "How did to go?" Tony asked. He then noticed your tears and ran to you "you are okay. I promise you. You will be okay. No matter how long it takes, you should never give up. I may not know what happened on that phone, but I know that any guy would be lucky to have you. You may not know it but you are an amazing person y/n. You WILL be happy." Tony said looking you in the eyes. You just smiled and pulled him into a deep hug. "I love you so much tony" you said kissing him on the cheek. You smiled and sat on your bed. You called Kio into the room he came into the room and rolled his eyes and sat on the bed as well. "Kio I really do like you. But I have a feeling that we would be better friends.." you said looking at him. A single tear fell out of his eye "yeah I would like that." He said and gave you a small smile pulling you into a hug.

1 1/2 weeks later
You were finally going home you were so excited to see Kairi, Mattia, roshuan, Robert, Alvaro, charli, Dixie, Alex, Diego, your dad, and even ale. Especially Kairi and Mattia. You still loved Mattia. You always will love him. But you do like Kairi a lot and don't want to break his heart. You are going to suprise the boys wel almost all of them you told Alvaro cause you forgot he was still on your private story when you posted about it. You added them all back on it after you posted about it. You ran in your house and ran and gave charli a hug "omg I missed you SOOO much!" You said about to cry everyone came down and Alex ran to you. You hugged him and you began crying. "Thank god. I thought you died" you giggled at Alex's joke. you hugged your dad, Dixie, and Diego. You were about to go upstairs when you almost forgot "guys come in.." you said Bryce, Kio, Anthony, Tony, Ondreaz, and Addison all walked in the house. Diego ran to Ondreaz and gave him a big hug, charli ran to Addison, and Alex ran to tony. They all hugged and they asked "who are they?" They all asked "that's Bryce, that's Kio.., and that's Anthony. They will all be staying with us. "I already asked dad on my way home so it's fine." You said and giggled. "Okay so tony and Ondreaz can sleep in dixies room and Dixie and charli will sleep in charlis room. Bryce and Addison can sleep in the guest room, and Kio and Anthony you can sleep in my room with me." You smiled at everyone they all nodded. You helped everyone take up there stuff. Okay so Kio and Anthony you can sleep on my bed I'll sleep on my couch. "Um okay." Anthony said you put there stuff by your bed. You called Mattia it went straight to voice mail. You sighed "hey... Mattia. I know I haven't talked to you. But I really fucking miss you" you began to tear up "also I'm home... if you are wondering" you ended the voice message and went to go suprise Kairi.

You pulled up to his drive way and knocked on his door, his mom opened the door. "Hi! Y/n!" She said Ale, Mattia, and Alvaro instantly popped up and ran to the door. Mattia engulfed you in his arms you hugged him tightly. You let go and hugged ale "setting aside our differences. I missed you" you said kissing his cheek and then hugging Alvaro "so hows Kai?" You asked they all gave you a straight face. "Wh-what's wrong" your voice began to break as you soon realized what was going on. You started rushing to his room. "Y/n wait!!" Ale yelled stopping you. "I- I just need to tell him." You said opening the door seeing him making out with a girl "ARE YOU FUCKING SERIO-SERIOUS" you screamed you were shaking, at this point. "..Y-Y/n I'm so sorry." He said getting up from the bed. Mattia ran up stairs hugging you "GET THE. FUCK OFF ME!!!" You screamed pushing him off of you. "I- I expected it from you two. But- but mattia?" You cried "y/n I'm really. Really sorry I jus- just he's my friend an.." you interrupted in by whispering "and to tell myself that I love- loved you at some point. The man that broke me, i loved a man that broke me" you whispered Mattia Heard you... "y-you loved me?" Mattia began crying even more. "YES YES... I fucking loved you..OKAY?" You yelled running downstairs before leaving you said "bye maiya! Bye mum(you called her mum)!, WE ARE DONE KAIRI!" You yelled slamming their door. You ran in your car. You couldn't control it at this point you let it all out "FUCKING ASSHOLES!!!" You screamed you decided to call Robert "can I pl-please fucking c-come over?" You asked still sobbing "yeah wtf happened are you okay? Who tf do I have to beat?" "It's-its just that Kai cheated on me..." you sobbed into the phone "oh honey-" you hung up. You drove home as fast as you could. You ran in the house. Diego saw your tears "wtf happened??" Diego ran to you "Kai cheated on- me.." you said hugging him back "but I have to go.." you said wiping your tears away.. "where are you going?" He said "roberts.." you said running upstairs and grabbing bags "omg Y/n are you okay?" Kio said walking to you "yeah I'm fine.. just boys AINT SHIT!" You raised your voice and walking out of the room.