We were sitting on the couch and I looked at her. 'I saw how fucking beautiful she was. Her personality was amazing. She made me crazy and she doesn't even know. God, Y/n Y/l/n you make my heart bound just when you breathe. I can not stress this enough don't change. If you ever changed I think I would literally deadass die. Your personality lights up my day. You body makes me smile. Your face makes my heart beat. Your perfect shape, showing all your curves, other people see flaws but I don't think I could. You are fucking beautiful. I don't think anyone could ever make me as happy as you do, you make me the happiest just by being here. You make me feel warm and safe. Like home, you make me fucking crazy. As soon as I saw you... I think I knew. Not a lot of people can actually say this but I think it was true love. You are my destiny. I can't imagine you with anybody else. I don't think I ever could imagine you with anybody else but me.. you make
Me insane Y/n. I really wanna tell you about how much I fucking love you but you love Mattia. I watch how your eyes watch him when he walks by. I see how you take care of him, even though he put you through hell. I could never be mattia I don't think I could ever be as handsome as Mattia. His hair is perfect, his teeth white, he may have a gap but it looks perfect on him. I have these big ass ears and they look gross. I hate that I don't deserve her. I hate myself for it. Why can't I be perfect for her. I need to change, get surgery or something. Wait no. I can't do that, I shouldn't change for people just because they can't accept the fact that I am perfect and they are insecure. But why can't she love me is there something wrong with me? Are my ears too big? Are my eyebrows too bushy? Are my muscles not big enough? Why Y/n? I want you so bad but you don't want me. You want him. Mr. perfect. It hurts so bad you can't even understand. Yes, Mattia has a girlfriend but he's taken. You aren't but you don't want me. That's worse. Being lonely hurts, knowing that even the people that are free don't want you. It stings. It's a sucky feeling, I have jasmine but she hits me, She yells at me, and she isn't her. She will never be Y/n, I will fight for you Y/n because I fucking love you.'
I looked back at Y/n and smiled at her she smiled back and I looked back at the movie.
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Staring (Nj Boys)
FanficWhen y/n moved to New Jersey, she started a new life with her sisters Charli and Dixie and her brothers Alex and Diego and of course her parent/ her dad. She had moved to New Jersey bc of her mother's recent death. She finally started to have it all...
