Hello Dear Diary

" My Boyfriend "

Dear diary,

        So before we continue with the flashback, I would love to say that today was an amazing day! There was this cute guy in the pharmacy and omg!! so fucking hot. But going on with the flashback. My mom noticed all of my changes and she was getting the hint that it was because of Zack. I mean after that time she saw him fighting with Gabriel who wouldn't feel uncomfortable being with him. Gabriel texted me day and night asking me why Zack acted that way ( Wish to know the answer to that as well) all I said was sorry and hope our friendship doesn't get ruined because of that. 

          I was so fed up with it I had to confront Zack. Let's do a scenario:

Me: What the fuck Zack!

Zack: WHY ARE YOU DEFENDING HIM? SHOULDN'T YOU BE ON MY SIDE ?! 

Me: Don't you raise your voice on me! Why I'm not taking your side; because Gabriel didn't do anything, in fact, he didn't even know you. What gave you the right to start a FUCKING FIGHT?

Zack: What are you sleeping with him? Cheating on me or something else?

           Yeah! his ego or pride, whatever the fuck I should call that is what started fucking me up. I mean all he needed to say was that I'm a slut but he kept that word in. Trust me, the person who was cheating in this relationship was him ( I'll explain later ). So you think that I broke up with him that day after he almost calls me a slut. NO! I DIDN'T! In fact, this relationship became so toxic that I loved it when he will scream at me. By the beginning of high school, I was one month pregnant. I didn't know but the symptoms started to show so I went to the school clinic. Please don't get mad at me, but I aborted the baby. Nowhere in this world was I gonna have a baby at the age of 15 with a 19-year-old. No fucking way. Zack didn't know about this either, because you would not believe it.

         It was our one year anniversary, Zack wanted to have a"romantic day" so I skip school. The interesting fact his other girlfriend found us in a restaurant. Let's make another scenario :  

Me: Zack don't get mad at m-

The girl: Zack! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING WITH THIS BITCH!

Zack : (whatever her name was) Heyy... umm do I know you 

Me: Zack what the fuck! are you cheating on me!

Zack: N..no.. you ...se..see she was just a one night 

The girl: What the fuck Zack! A one night! are you sure about that. That I can remember you proposed to me!

Me : ( Slaps Zack and leaves ) 

                 Since then, I blocked Zack and thankfully we moved places. The perfect time to move out of that suffocating neighborhood. I called Allan my other closed friend to help me out. I explained everything and he decided to take me out for some drinks. Yea we were young but, for drinks as long as you can control it, everything is fine. Favorite drinks, tequila summer rise, Sangria, whisky on the rocks, scotch on the rocks, vodka, and rum. Don't judge! Allan then made me talk so I can let go of everything. Wanna know something, that girl was pregnant! Not only that, if I didn't abort the baby's would've been buddies. See that girl was two months pregnant. Allan told me.

        Well, that night one thing lead to another and we made out. It was wrong but felt so good. Allan noticed that I was so into it, his hand went up to my thigh, yea that night I had sex with Allan. The next day we didn't talk. Maybe he didn't like it, maybe he would want more so some space would be good for us. After a month Allan text me back and asked me on a date. I said yes. Somehow I still felt as if I was cheating on Zack. Fucking hated the fact that I felt that way. After two months of the breakup and I feel like I'm cheating on him. So unreal!!!!! 

          Allan understood me in every way. He was my only friend who knew my deepest and dark secrets. When I left for Mexico in the spring, Allan took the same trip with me. Of course, he bought it himself, my parents didn't know that. The first time together taking a trip to Mexico. Actually, I took the flight that I had to switch planes. My parents didn't agree since I had to stay in Texas for three days. Guess what; it was only for Allan and me to spend time. So before the weekend of being with my grandparents in Mexico, we had a couple of weeks ( Almost like a honeymoon) I loved it! Will never forget that time. We were like animals, nobody stopped us. I did wish someone would have. That I didn't take that trip, because a few months later I ended up pregnant again.