Hello Dear Diary

How It Starts

Dear Diary,

      Still not getting used to writing in this book but I will give it time. So what was the last thing I wrote? Right, Zack. 8th grade was like senior year in high school the only problem, I'm still a minor. Plus dating Zack was the major problem! Where it all begins. In January, we made 2 months of dating, and plus on January 14 was his birthday. ( Surprised that I still remember that asshole birthday) So he asked me something that caught me off guard. SEND NUDES! WHAT!!!  If you think that I was stupid enough for me sending it well I agree with you. I fulfill his wish and that's where the trouble began. 

         Within weeks he will ask for more and more nudes. In my mind, I believe that I was doing the right thing. He was my boyfriend so why not, he has the right to see me as to how I am. You will think that it was not going to affect me during my daily day but it did. In February I started slacking in school. My grades were down, skip school a lot, and drugs! alcohol!! got into my life like water. My parents noticed a change in me. They offer help, like going to see a doctor or talking to them, and I said no. In fact, I remember my exact words: " Get the fuck away from me! I'm fine, don't ever bother me again!" Yeah! guess I was too bitchy towards them. My brother had his own problems as well so, I decided not to talk to him about what was going on.

                 My two bff's Abigail and Kathy told me something that made me disgusted. " Addi did you know that Zack has a daughter?" WTF he has a daughter?! No, of course, I didn't know and you know why because he was looking for a step mommy I was a sex toy for him, and a mom to his 5-year-old. SHIT! I MEAN LITERAL FUCKING SHIT! Because I could've run away from all of this but I played the loving mom and girlfriend. Did my parents knew about this No!! I kept my first naughty secret. Rebel is the word my parents will say I had become. But they will never know why. 

        By mid-April,  our relationship between groping and dry humping was over. No, we didn't break up, but we had sex. Crazy and painful sex. Why because he took advantage. Because after that day, I wasn't the same person. But back then I thought that was how sex is. Not until someone came in through my life. So it was June already, I graduated, and trust me when I tell you that I was drunk on my graduation day. Not only that I had smoke as well so graduation doesn't remember much. Zack came to graduation, but he couldn't get to me because of my parents. My dad hated him, and my mom was always curious about who he was. But don't worry she did meet him - on an unexpected day. 

         It's soccer season and I was on the team. Most of my friends were on the same team, especially my childhood friend Jason. OMG! If I could tell you how funny and really protective he is towards me; you'll love him. It was our third game from the month, it was against Zack's team. We are really competitive so we didn't even talk just stare at each other until my friend Jason and Gabriel got closer to me. You will understand that we are playing, nothing else. In Zack's mind, I was cheating or they were taking advantage of me. Within a blink of an eye, Zack was fighting with Gabriel and telling him to get away from me. I pulled Zack away and asked Gabriel if he was okay. He nodded his head and I followed him to the bathroom to help him clean his wounds. 

                  I was so mad with Zack, I didn't text him for a week. Oh yeah! I forgot, my mom met Zack when he was fighting with Gabriel. Third-person that hates him now. Keep a count; it will keep growing.