Hello Dear Diary

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Dear Diary, 

       Today was a really weird day. I saw someone I've been avoiding for some time and I have no clue how he figures where I was. But anyway, Felix was worried about me. I could tell that he cared so much for me and the baby. While we're getting ready for the wedding, Felix was divorcing. I helped him through, his ex was fine with it as well. By the end of the court date, Felix told me that he was married to her for the money. Arranged Marriage !!! Holy shit! I could never. But props to him for holding it all of these years.

       Not only that he was good with kids. Emma adored him! To the point where she didn't ask for her dad anymore. He was his dad, and that's all she cared for. I mean, after all, that bastard never came back, not even to check up on his own daughter. So after some months, I had to be more careful with the pregnancy. Emma was at the age where she can be really strong. My mom offered to help so that I wouldn't get hurt. By the 8th month and a half. I got really bad pain, Felix took me to the hospital. The pain grew more and more. Until my water broke.

      I was so scared, it wasn't time for the baby to be out. Felix was panicking and called my parents right away. In the surgery room, the doctor and nurses are all over the place. Getting their equipment and trying to figure out what is happening. On the other side, I have so much pain that I feel so light-headed. The nurse is telling me no to close my eyes. But HOW! I can't with all this pain. 

     Before everything, the doctor recommended for me to do a c-section because it will be less risky during birth. But I decided for it to be natural. Now during my childbirth, it's impossible for me to try natural because I won't have the strength for it. They added anesthesia and started cutting. They were really careful and when the baby came out, he was cleaned and put in an incubator with oxygen. It was so small he couldn't breathe for himself. I cried and cried, when the doctors finish, I was taken to a room. Felix was trying not to cry in front of me. I blame myself for what happened but the most important thing was knowing if my baby was going to be okay.

      The doctor confirms to us that until he was fully developed, I can't take him home. Due to early birth, he may have medical problems in the future.  Felix and I just tear up. Not knowing what will happen. I mean what do you do in this situation. Emma couldn't stay in the hospital, so she came from time to time and she was confused. She saw her baby brother but thought that it was weird. Made me chuckle a little but then I had to find the perfect way to explain to her. 

       Felix was more cooperative and more romantic. I think this was my best shot. We had a choice to stay in the hospital or go. We decided to stay and get to another room. Since a month after Michael's birth, we had so many changes. Felix and I stayed with the baby and sometimes we will get a little hot but we couldn't. I could feel the desperation in Felix but he also understood the situation we were in.

      After another month; we were out of the hospital and in a new home. We need to get a bigger and comfortable place for the kids. Both kids were in my parents' house until we finish fixing the house. One day Felix couldn't hold it back and we had the best hot sex you could've to imagine. I mean we did it more than three times. Not gonna lie I was waiting for this, for a long time. Feeling his touch and that need... so fucking hot. Will never forget that!

     A year passed and everything was going perfectly. We got married, our kids are doing good. Michael is better than ever. We have perfect jobs and started our own business. After that, it continued for years until that one year. It was late, we were at a party. Felix got tired and we left ( not a party guy ) so we got in the car. Going back home there was another car in the opposite direction. Felix couldn't go around it and we end up crashing.

       What really happen........