SEPTEMBER 01, 2025
DAY 69
After all the sobs and cries, I finally returned to my old self. Moving on is so much easier said than done. However, I don't want to see myself suffer and become miserable than I already am. It's been a few weeks yet I haven't heard anything from him. No, I don't need his apology. I just need to hear a valid reason yet all he say was just sorry.
Although it pains me to see him everyday like nothing happened, I don't want to waste the friendship we both built. I don't have any resentments so I was the one who offered closure just to make sure the break up won't affect our friends and classmates especially our studies.
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Francezca: Hello, it's been i-don't-know-how-many days and I realized we didn't have a closure. We may have some misunderstandings but I don't want to throw everything we put together like nothing. We still have our friendship don't we? I will not mention what happened between the two of us anymore so please, you don't have to feel guilty about it. I know you have your reason and I will no longer ask you to tell me that. I just want you to be happy. I want you to live your life to the fullest and remember that I love you and I always will.
Joshua: I want you to know that I love you more than anything in this world and I'm sorry if I can't be deserving for you at the moment. You deserve the best and that's not me.
Francezca: Shhh, it's okay, I understand. You don't have to feel sorry. I'll give you some time alone. Friends?
Joshua: Friends.
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If keeping him as a friend would mean there's still a chance for us, I would take the risk. I'll wait until he could finally set himself free from something that holds him back. I wish I'm still here when that time comes.
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SEPTEMBER 03, 2025
DAY 71
After that closure, we became friends again like we used to be and I'm glad our friends are happy about us being okay. We're not awkward although I still sneak glances whenever he's not looking and every time I do it, my chest tightens.
Another basketball day came and this was their first game that I didn't cheer for him, shout his name, wipe his sweat or buy water for him. Instead, I cheered for the other team. Then I noticed a guy sitting beside us girls on the bleachers.
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"Who is he?" I whispered Korine.
"I don't personally know him but I've seen him with Julius so many times. So I guess he's a friend."
"Why? Your type?" Daniela raised her brow and I shrugged my shoulders. Korine gave me a devilish smile and did something quite annoying.
"Don't---" It was too late cause she already called the guy, unashamed of herself. I covered my face with my long wavy hair.
"Hey. May I know your name? My friend here is interested." out of curiosity, I brushed off my hair and faced him. I saw his manly smile and sparkling eyes.
"Simon." He said, locking his eyes on mine. My friends started giggling and pushing me to him.
"Cezca." Their giggles and screams grew even louder that the players got distracted. We gave each other a sweet and friendly smile until Korine blurted something.
"Why do you keep on staring at her, Josh? Are you jealous?" I turned my face to see him but he looked away.
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SEPTEMBER 06, 2025
DAY 74
After that day, I messaged Simon to offer friendship. I finally found my happy crush. The one that makes my day. The one that mends my wounded heart. Many times, I tried to read Joshua's mind whenever we cross paths with Simon yet I can't see anything. Are we wrong? Was he not jealous that day?
Unluckily, we have this science experiment project that we have to observe for 7 days and we're in the same group. I thought it's going to be okay cause it will only take five to ten minutes per day after class but it's no ordinary group meetings if we are in the same boat.
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"Do this, then that." Our leader commanded. I was trying to cut the gauze straightly when Josh pushed my hand. All of us yelled and complained yet he responded with a playful laugh.
When I was about to place the materials to be taken a documentary, he slapped my hands lightly enough to disorganize the materials.
"Joshua!" I shouted but instead of stopping, he pinched my nose.
"Okay love birds, quit playing. Let's finish this so we can all go home instantly." my cheek flashed red. Josh stopped annoying me and faced down like a child as if being scolded by his mom.
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When I got home, the lights were dim and I could still see my mom crying in silence. I kneeled down in front of her, trying to see her face in darkness.
"What's the matter?" I asked.
"I love you." that's all she could say.
"Tell me, what's wrong?"
"I kept you safe and happy. I raised you to be a good person." I gave her a questionable look.
"Sorry. I need to turn you over to your true family and adkhsdiuw." I felt numb like my ears couldn't hear anything anymore.
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365 Days Down
Teen FictionIt's about a girl who has a cancer that's been finding her own purpose in life. Her fate and destiny will both change the life of the people she loves and will leave a memorable gift that will make them remember her even after she dies.
