JANUARY 01, 2026
DAY 184
Both me and Nathan moved out of the unit after that day. Yeah, we both break off the engagement. Now, he got back together with Shane and I introduced Joshua to my family. Dad also allowed us to get married as per my request. He cried a lot but in the end, he said he's thankful that an angel like me came into his life.
He also introduced me to his family and they gave us their blessing too. I stopped going to school. Oh, and I'm four months pregnant by the way. At first, they told me that it's too risky. But I said I want to do it. I want someone to remind them that I am always here.
So Josh also moved in our house to take care of me. But I told him he still needs to go to school and that my parents will support him and his family all the way. May it be financially, emotionally or whatever it is. He's against it at first but he accepted later on, when he felt he's really a family to us and that we have no other intention but to help for the sake of our child.
As what I've wished for, we came to Korea to celebrate Christmas and now we're here in London to celebrate New Year. As I see my family all getting along with each other makes me feel like my purpose has been fulfilled.
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"After you went missing because of that huge fire, we never got a chance to spend holidays like this together. It's either one of us are busy or all of us are busy." - Van
"Right, I can't even remember the last time we went abroad." Mom said.
"I think it's when we went to Japan several years ago." Dad said.
"What? That's ten years ago." - Vhel
"And we barely have a proper dinner together. Honestly, I didn't feel like having a family for years." Everyone went silent. "It's like you became the key that reminded us that we're still a family after all we've been through."
Josh held my hand and I can't stop myself from smiling. "Well I guess, this is my life's purpose here on Earth." I smiled.
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Spending holidays in my two dream countries has already been granted. As well as my wish to see the beauty of Palawan with my family of course. After Palawan, we went to Romblon then to Paris. I want to travel as much as I want while my tummy is not that big. I want to spend my remaining life with the people I love.
Sooner or later, I cannot travel anymore, now that I can feel my body weaken. My birthday is coming up, and so is my baby shower plus my wedding.
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FEBRUARY 18, 2026
DAY 231
Finally, my birthday came. The baby shower took place at the mansion's garden as my friends, family and trusted people gathered with us. I watched everyone having a good time together, feeling happy for me despite of knowing about my illness and I feel so blessed. My heart is flattered and is exploding with happiness. I feel like I'm ready to die because I finally fulfilled my purpose in life-- just before I die.
Sharing goodness and memory with the people who each have a special place in my heart. Maybe this is my purpose, gathering them all in one place for a very important event. My illness is indeed a blessing in disguise, for it brought back a bond of a family that they thought they have lost.
And now, once I am gone, my daughter will finally complete the holes in the hearts of the people I'll be leaving behind. Especially Josh. Whom like me, fought our own Nemesis which is ourselves, rode on a roller coaster ride and forgave in the end.
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Josh wrapped his arms around me. "What are you thinking?" He whispered.
"I thought of being happy leaving this world, knowing that my daughter will be on the hands of a loving family, friends and most of all, father." I felt his tears on my shoulder, his arms loosened but still didn't respond.
"Promise me, you'll find a woman whom you will love and will love you more than I do. A woman who will love our daughter like her own."
"No one will love me more than you do."
"Promise me." I whispered. Finally, he gave in.
"I promise."
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8 MONTHS
FEBRUARY 25, 2026
DAY 238
Today is the day of my wedding. I already had an engagement with Nathan in front of all my family, friends, classmates and important people to me. To avoid chaos for the past engagement I had, we made this wedding as private and simple as possible. I only invited those people whom I trust, my friends who knows about my situation and our family who understands the circumstances.
No business people are invited. Wedding is one of my wishes. As I walk down the aisle, wearing a simple white long gown, tears started falling from my eyes. My heart is pounding so hard and loud as if wanting to escape. My heart is firing with happiness as I see my husband waiting for me to come. We are 18 years old, bound to be happy. And now, we took the vows that will forever be in our hearts and memory even if I die. This moment may never be remembered in my next life, yet will be felt with the same heart.
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As day goes by, I feel my body weaken. The pain I usually endure within me, can no longer be hidden. As I suffer, my family is still showing me their happy faces even if I know they're just holding their tears back. I know they don't want me to see how sad and scared they were. Especially now that I am laying on my bed all day, carrying my child yet can't even stand by my own feet.
Like them, I'm also scared. Who on Earth aren't scared of dying? We improve everyday for we are scared to fail. And we try to be happy and satisfy ourselves every day because we are scared to die knowing we still have nothing to be proud of. Just because I said I am ready to accept my fate doesn't mean I'm not scared at all. I'm carrying my child in this weak body. But I trust God, I trust his plan for me.
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9 MONTHS
MARCH 25, 2026
DAY 266
Can't move my body with all my strength. Can't even write a single letter for weeks. I've been on my bed, so weak. My face is pale as white, lips has no color anymore, and strands of hair falling.
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"I want to go out." One night, I got out of my bed and joined them for dinner.
"But—" My Dad held mom's hand. The other four looked away and continued digging on the supper.
"I want to do the rest of my wish." I smiled. Tears started pouring from their eyes, Josh gently rubbed my back.
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As I stare at my shiny bald head on my reflection, I managed to flash a smile with Josh, smiling at my back too. After few weeks of being week, we spent this week of completing my list with him.Walking every night, watching my favorite movies and star gazing with him. We even went to a city on a mountain top where we can see the city lights below. The moon so bright and full. It's my first time seeing a moon as beautiful as this. How happy I am to witness this beautiful scenery with the man I love.
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I was about to find something to eat this morning when I felt my tummy cramps. I hardly breathe and sweat exploded as I inhale exhale. They all rushed to me in panic. My nose bled and almost going to faint when I felt something cold running on my hips. Liquid.
Our eyes widened in shock and panic, don't know if it's because of the baby going to come out soon or because we all thought the same thing. My sickness is getting worse day by day and I also thought I can't do it. When I got in this hospital, it's not the liquid anymore. It's blood.
Cold wind quivered to my spine and that exact moment, I prayed. I prayed so hard, prayed sincerely more than ever. Last thing I knew, I fainted as soon as I heard a baby's cry. When I woke up, all of them are smiling, tears falling and they gave me my healthy beautiful daughter. I felt my body weaken even more. But my heart is full of happiness.
God answered my prayer, as they call it, the miracle baby. And for the first time in my life, I felt like my fear of dying, withered away.
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365 Days Down
Teen FictionIt's about a girl who has a cancer that's been finding her own purpose in life. Her fate and destiny will both change the life of the people she loves and will leave a memorable gift that will make them remember her even after she dies.
