PATH OF LOVE✨

Chapter 3

  Life is full of test,unexpected things happen, in some moment of life you will be tested to the worst....but Allah knows best
          
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       "I need a defibrillator now"

"1....2...Clear" shocking the woman that lie on the bed.
 
        No pulse

  "Shock 200 & Clear"
           Nothing happen

      "250, again nothing"

   "300.....Clear"

          I bend down to give CPR for the umpteenth time. But there is no pulse.
Looking at the pale body and praying internally for the best,but what have been destined cannot be changed.

     "Time of death 11:40" I declare the death of the 38 year old woman,after multiple tries to save her she didnt make it.

Walking out of the ICU,with my colleague Dr Mathew to inform her family.

     The patient has coronary artery disease,we have tried angioplasty and some other but didn't work,we later decide for a BYEPASS open heart surgery,but unfortunately she lost pulse towards end of the surgery.

    Immediately her family spotted me 
they rush towards me

   "Is she okay doctor"her husband ask,my eyes is clouded with tears already,i try to stay strong & hold it,refusing to let the water work begin.

    ''I'm sorry sir,she has a cardiac arrest mid surgery,she lost pulse,am so sorry for your lost'" I said then continue
     "Dr Mathew and i did whatever we could but......my voice broke.

  The husband staggered to the wall crying,hitting the wall,her dad walk to a seat lookin g lost and showing no emotions,while the mom produce a loud wail throwing herself around me,I just stood there helpless,we weren't supposed to show any emotion,but I can't hold it,the woman was a fighter,she fight for her family and continue to fight till her death.

      I couldn't take it anymore,I walk to my office feeling dejected,as soon as I close the door I break down crying,I cried for a long time.

    I heard the sound of the door opening looking up,I saw Najma I quickly hug her crying

      "I tried all my best,I don't know what goes wrong,am sorry"
       Rubbing my back and whispering some calming word to me, she said

"Why are you talking like this,you also know not every patient survive,you have to be strong"
       
       "Kullu nafsin dhaikatul maut",all creature are bound to die be it sooner or later,its not your fault,the only thing we can do now is to pray for her"
           She comforted me 
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  Reaching home,I greeted my mum but she notice how sad I look and ask what happened,I told her cryingly
comforting me she did some nasiha,
then told me to go and pray in my room,I did ablution and pray zuhr and did nafla,then took Qur'an and read,soon it was time for Asr,I prayed and do some azkar and pray for her.

    I did not even know when I doze off,only for me to wake up and find myself on the bed,may be my brother place me on the bed,since it was time for magrib,I prayed in my room,my mum brought my food and feed me,my siblings also checkup on me,I pray isha  and sleptoff.

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     The sun shone brightly into my room making contact with my face.

I woke up stretching my body and check the time 10:38, I got up from the bed stripping out of my clothe,I wrap a towel around my body & enter the bathroom,I  sit in the tub  & have a relaxing bath,then got dressed.