The green eyes I wanted to find

Chapter 10

A monotonous sound was on in the background. Everything was white suddenly. Slowly some blurry features became visible in this white surface. I heard a female voice saying:

"She's waking up!"

I didn't notice where this voice came from, I couldn't distinguish it from the blurry area I was staring into. Someone's hands were touching me, feeling my pulse on my sleeve and my throat, and a woman's head showed up in my vision.

"Hey, hey, can you hear me?"

I tried to reply, a small and scratchy "Yes" came finally out of my throat.

She looked relieved and started to ask me some other questions, like, what my name was, where I was born and so on.

Suddenly, a door was ripped open and someone came in with powerful steps.

"Is she allright? I'm her boyfriend, I need to... God. You're awake."

I haven't been completely conscious at the moment yet, and so I thought I was in heaven. A familiar face with familiar green, concerned eyes was opposite mine now, the head with a dark blue beanie on it leaned in and planted a timid kiss on my forehead. Familiar hands tightened their grip around my left hand and caressed it.

"Jonny", I whispered. It was him. He sat here, next to my bed and held my hand. He said he was my boyfriend.

"Darling, I'm so incredibly happy you're alive", he said while tears were forming in his eyes. The door closed again and the nurse was gone. It was just him and me.

"Jon, I'm so incredibly sorry for all that. I didn't want to let anything of all this happen. I'm so, so sorry..." Tears fell down onto my cheeks, too.

We've been sitting for at least one hour just like this. I learned that he had talked to Guy. He had apologized thousands of times and explained everything, he had told Jonny that none of this all had actually been any of my fault. Jonny had missed me terribly, he hadn't known where I had been all the time, he hadn't dared call me for he had thought I would completely end our relationship at this moment because I wouldn't want to hear from him or whatever. To sum it all up, Jon had been too shy and polite to just call me and 'disturb me', as he said, and so he had been at least as unhappy and broken as me. Then suddenly, last night at 10:30pm, he had been reached by an anonymous caller ID that turned out to be Alice. She had told him his girlfriend had tried to commit suicide and she had found her in her hotel room. His girlfriend would be in the hospital now, out of critical state but still unconscious. He had driven to hospital as fast as possible and was sick with worry the whole time. He had to sit in the waiting area until I had woken up. In the meantime he had been informed about my attempted suicide. I had taken an overdose of sleeping pills and fallen unconscious, hardly breathing, after that. Alice had wanted to bring me some chocolate to cheer me up a bit and when I hadn't answered, she opened the door with a second key to find my laying there. The doctors have emptied my stomach and given me some medicine for my circulatory. The current prognosis was that I would probably have to stay at the hospital for tonight to make sure my health state is allright.

After he had told me all this, I stared at him incredulously.

"I did all this...because of you..." I uttered silently, mostly to myself.

"You don't need to explain. We were both behaving like cunts. That happens in relationships. We just didn't realize what we were getting into actually. So the situation, well, sort of overreacted..." Jonny sighed. "I am so happy that you're alive", he repeated and held my hand tighter.

The door opened again and the nurse stepped in and put a hand on Jonny's shoulder.

"So, sir, there's two options for you, you could either go home and pick her up tomorrow, or you could stay here over night." She turned to face me.