Disconnected

20th

!!LAME CHAPTER AHEAD!!

{Pauline's PoV}

I read the news and I'm worried as fuck, I texted Jane but she's not responding, I turned on the T.V.and watched, I need to calm down

'okay lang sila Pau, chill'

"uhh shit" I said, tumayo ako at nag palit ng damit, I'm confused gusto kong umuwi pero hindi pwede

"dang life"

humiga ako sa kama at na alala ko ang nangyari kanina, I'm mad it's not because I met him again, I'm mad because I still love him kahit niloko niya ako, I'm frustrated that I responded to his kiss

tumagilid ako and I remembered that I told him to come here tomorrow, nasampal ko nalang ang sarili ko dahil sa sinabi ko

'fuck stupid me'

kinuha ko ulit ang phone ko nung nag ring, it's Jane

'okay lang sila, ikaw ba okay ka lang?'

"wait, you're telling me na lumabas ka just to check on them?"

'yes you bitch, ano kamusta ka dyan?'

"you told him kung nasaan ako"

'excuse me hindi ako nag sabi yung madaldal na si Claire, it's not my fault'

"fine fine whatever, nakita na niya ako wala na akong magagawa, go home safely ingat kayo, thanks" I said and hang up

matutulog na sana ako pero ay kumatok sa pinto

'storbo'

I opened the door and it's Lester, he's drunk

"Lester what the fuck have you done to yourself?" sermon ko sakanya habang inuupo siya sa sofa

"please Pau let's talk"

"talk about what? you're drunk sa tingin mo matino tayong makakapag usap?"

he smiled and looked at me "I missed you"

"what?!"

"I missed sleeping next to you, I missed talking to you, I missed looking at you, fuck I missed everything about you"

"Lester please gabi na"

"tell me you don't love me anymore and I'll leave"

"Lester"

"tell me do you still love me?"

I kept my mouth shut and I looked away, of course I still love him, I'm just hurt about what happened, but I'm going to be stupid if I let him in in my life again

hinawakan niya ang kamay ko and when I looked at him his crying "please tell me"

binawi ko ang kamay ko and I hold back my tears "Lester kailangan mo na mag pahinga, tama na hindi kita pa aalisin dahil ganyan ang sitwasyon mo, matulog ka na"

pumasok ako sa kwarto at doon ko iniyak lahat ng sakit, I can't take it anymore, I want to hug him I want him back I want to be with him again, but I don't want to look stupid

pinalipas ko ang ilang oras bago lumabas ulit, he's sleeping tight kumuha ako ng sponge bath at hinilamusan ko siya

habang titig na titig ako sa mukha niya bigla siyang gumalaw at niyakap ako

'fuck I can't move'

dahil nga takot ako na magising siya ginawa ko ang lahat para maka alis pero sa bawat galaw ko lalo lang humihigpit ang yakap niya

nag hintay ako na gumalaw siya ulit para makawala ako kaso hindi na ulit siya gumalaw, inaantok na ako kaya natulog nalang ako

{Lester's PoV}

'akala ko matitiis mo ko babe'

sinadya kong yakapin siya and I'm happy that she didn't resist, hiniga ko siya sa tabi ko and I hugged her tight, tinanggal ko yung buhok na tumatakip sa mukha niya

"I love you" I whispered

hindi ko sinasadya na dito ako kumatok, my brother and Ryle left me for me to think all by myself and by accident ibang floor ang napindot ko and instead of my own room I knocked at her room

'best accident I've ever had'

I closed my eyes and I'm happy because I know that the one who's sleeping next to me right now is the girl that I love

the next morning I woke up I immediately smiled because she's still sleeping beside me, she wakes up and she's shocked

"what the hell?!" - Pauline

"why?"

"bakit tayo magkatabi?"

"why? what's wrong with that?"

"what's wrong with that? ang pangit tignan, damn"

"really? ang daming beses na natin nag tabi matulog"

"I know but that's before"

"and what's wrong with doing it again?"

"Mr.Lester Mark De Guzman wala na tayo, okay? so if you wouldn't mind please umalis ka na"

"Mrs. Pauline De Guzman, why don't you let me take care of you, today and for the rest of your life"

"fine, last chance Lester, last and final chance"

my eyes widened and my heart us jumping "really?"

"yes"

I ran towards her and hugged her tight

"thank you" I said and kissed her

"calm your self down, I'm starving"

"I'll cook for you, what do you want?"

"you" I heard her whispered "it's up to you, I'll just go and fix myself"

while preparing breakfast my phone rang, it's kuya Lance

"kuya?"

'Tey nasaan ka?? I've been looking for you'

"don't worry kasama ko si Pauline"

'I smell something fishy'

"she gave a second chance, so I must provide to her that I really love her"

'so that's why the lover boy is missing in action'

"yep"

'well since you're with Pauline we'll just go and roam around, if you need me just call me'

"yes I will, take care"

I ended the call and focused

"so he's helping you" nagulat ako nung nag salita si Pauline sa likod ko

"uhm yeah he helped me"

"kita mo na sabi ko naman sayo dati wag mo sisihin yung sarili mo nung nawala siya"

"but I'm the reason why he didn't grew up with mom and dad"

"no, it's not your fault it's the doctors fault, kahit naman anong mangyari mahal ka parin niya"

"ikaw ba? mahal mo parin ba ako?"

"what if  sabihin ko na hindi na?"

"what if you do?"

"remove what if, because I really do"

"y-you still love me?"

"yes I do, I still love you"

"I love you too"

this time she hugged me and I can feel that she also missed me

"now that you're with me, I'll never let myself lose you again"