Disconnected

22nd🔞

!!LAME CHAPTER AHEAD!!

WARNING: SEMI-MATURE CONTENTS AHEAD

{Lester's PoV}

pagkatapos namin sumayaw inalalayan ko siya umupo ulit at umupo na rin ako, tahimik kaming kumain

I looked at her face but I found myself looking at her neck, I love her neck

'wait what? what did I just said?'

"why?" agaw niya sa atensiyon ko

"ah t-the necklace suites you"

"really? you like it?"

"yeah I like it" I said then smiled but I wonder what your neck looks like when I marked it

I pinched myself real hard 'the fuck Lester? anong iniisip mo?'

"excuse me, kailangan ko lang pumunta sa restroom" paalam ko kay Pauline and I rushed inside the restroom

I faced the huge mirror and talked to my own reflection "listen you moron, she's your girlfriend you have the right to kiss her, to hug her but for heaven's sake stop fantasizing her"

'but she's my girlfriend after all' tugon ng boses sa utak ko

I slapped my forehead "wait okay? learn to wait Lester"

nahilamos ko nalang ang palad sa mukha ko, hindi ko alam anong mali sakin ngayon there's something telling me to continue fantasizing her but I know it's wrong

'dang it'

bumalik ako sa upuan ko and Pauline looked at me, she looked worried

"babe are you okay?" I asked

"ikaw are you okay? you look so distracted"

"me? no I'm... I'm fine"

"you sure?"

I held her hand and kissed it "yes I am sure"

'I hate my mind, I hate it as fuck'

pagkatapos namin kumain nag lakad lakad kami, bago tuluyang umalis, I texted kuya Lance

To: Bro

'thanks kuya, she enjoyed it I owe you'

I send it then drive, I thought Pauline's busy with something that's why she's not talking but I'm surprised that she's sleeping, I decided to bring her back to the hotel I carried her to her room then I gently put her to bed

"you're tired aren't you?" I brushed her hair away from her face "thank you for giving me another chance, thank you for trusting me again and this time I'll make sure to make you happy always, if possible"

I lay down next to her and hugged her, I gently pull her closer to me then she moan

'fuck'

I distance myself to her, I don't want to do it unless we're married, I'm controlling myself not to touch her, I transferred to the sofa and there I slept

"babe, wake up it's time to eat dinner" I heard Pauline's voice while she's shaking me "why did you sleep here? sasakit yung katawan mo sa ginagawa mo eh"

"I uhm...I was watching TV, hindi ko namalayan na nakatulog ako"

"watching TV? pag labas ko nakapatay na yan"

"I-I turned it off"

"hmm okay, nag luto ako I did my best, tara let's eat"

tumayo ako at nagpauna mag lakad, I'm trying not to go near her, I might lose my self control

she sat next to me but I transferred, parallel to her, I saw her raised her eyebrow

'this is the right thing to do'

"here eat this" nag lagay siya ng pasta sa plato ko, kumain ako habang paulit ulit sa ulo ko yung tunog ng ungol niya kanina

'dang I need to control myself or else mom would be disappointed'

"hey babe you're spacing out"

"huh? ah... I'm sorry"

"so what do you think? masarap ba?"

I looked at my plate naubos ko na pala yung binigay niya "yeah masarap"

natapos kami kumain and I insist to wash the dishes, pagkatapos pumunta ako sa sala to watch TV with her, she's seating at the long couch kaya umupo ako sa isang maliit na couch

"bakit nandyan ka?" she asked and my heart was beating so fast

'wala akong alibi'

"ha? b-bakit?"

"tell me Lester, iniiwasan mo ba ako?" she asked, thankfully my phone rang I picked it up and answered it

{Pauline's PoV}

pagkatapos ng tawag niya tinignan ko siya ng masama

"I'm sorry I need to go" pag papaalam niya then he rushed out

my heart ache, anong meron? bakit iniiwasan niya ako? did I do something wrong?

'should I regret that I welcome him again?'

natigil ako sa pag tatanong when someone texted me, I grabbed my phone hoping that it's Lester but I frown, it's Jane

'hey bitch natapos na yung bagyo, safe yung pamilya mo, don't worry about me I'm safe and ready to f--- alam mo na yon'

To: Jane

'thanks for checking them Jane, go on and meet your 'the one' I'll see you soon'

I locked myself inside my room, tumitig ako sa kisame and then I fell asleep

nagising ako, someone is sleeping beside me, I turn and my heart skipped a beat, it's Lester

'he came back?'

lumapit ako sakanya and kissed his cheek, then I fixed myself inside the bathroom, kasama ko si Lester the whole morning but It's obvious, iniiwsan niya ako, I couldn't take it so I pulled him and locked him against the wall

"ano bang problema mo De Guzman?"

"w-what do you mean?" alinlangan niyang sagot

"come on stop pretending, iniiwasan mo ko why is that? nag sisisi ka ba na binalikan ko ako--"

"no"

"then bakit mo ako iniiwasan? iiwas ka na lang bumalik ka pa"

"you don't understand stand me--"

"then make me understand you, explain" I demand tsaka ko nilapit ang mukha ko sakanya "nakaka ngalay tumingkayad Lester mag sasalita ka o iiwan kita?"

nagulat ako nung buhatin niya ako at siniil ng halik, inupo niya ako sa lamesa ng kusina and wrapped my legs around his waist, dahan dahan bumaba ang halik niya at tumigil lang siya nung umabot siya sa leeg ko

"that's why"

"what?"

"I want you, I want to own you and I don't want to do it, not until we're married and I'm terrified because I heard your moan once and I don't think I could control myself once I heard it again"

"what? saan mo naman narinig yon?"

"yesterday, you're sleeping and I hugged you tight but unconsciously you moan"

he's controlling his self, what a gentleman

"sorry, I needed to keep ny distance I respect you I respect your family and I respect and value marriage" sabi niya ng naka yuko

hinawakan ko ang pisngi niya at inangat ang mukha niya "no need to say sorry babe, I understand thank you for being a true gentleman" then I planted a kiss on his forehead

"I love you"

"I love you too"

he hugged me 'I think I loved the right man'