Just Friends??

Chapter 10

Siren POV

I can't even begin to describe how much I am hurting. I can barely even get out of bed half the damn time. And my husband doesn't understand and I don't expect him to.

These three months have been hell and I don't even want to think how Henry is right now.

I am currently laying in my bed, where it feels cold without my husband, I look at the alarm clock on the nightstand and it was three in the morning.

I haven't even been to sleep yet and I don't think I will. Every night I keep replaying what happened that night between me and Jake with the alcohol.

I feel selfish for how I've been acting toward him. But he didn't carry Henry for nine months, he didn't feel every movement that Henry made, he didn't grow him and he sure as hell didn't push him out.

But I know I messed up with Piper. I haven't been there for her at all since Ray came over that day and explained what Henry was doing all this time with Ray.

I still love Piper and I would do anything for her, but I just can't even get out of bed. How am I'm going to help her when I can't even help myself.

Jake is right I'm not the only one who lost Henry.

So I'm going to go downstairs and make breakfast for us all and try to fix what I messed up.

I sat up on the edge of the bed and just sat there in the dark with my head down and eyes closed.

After about 30 minutes I decide to lay back down and try to go back to sleep. After about ten minutes of laying down with my eyes closed I start to drift off.

When I wake up the sun is out and coming through the blinds. I sit up and look at the clock and it's 7:20. At least I slept a little.

I get up and go to the bathroom. I take care of what I need to and head out to go down the stairs.

I hope Piper and Jake is here so maybe I can talk to them and we all can cook breakfast together like we used to.

As I get to the stairs to go to the living room I hear Piper and Jake talking. I peek around the corner and see them cleaning a kitten.

I decide to just stand there and watch them. Jake is so gentle with Piper and the kitten. Hell Jake is gentle with everyone and everything. I think that's why when he yelled and threw the bottle it caught me off guard.

I never wanted to hurt either of them and I did. I fucked up bad. After a few minutes of standing near the stairs I hear Piper get up and put everything away.

Maybe I should go down and make my existence known, but I don't know. I don't want to mess up what is going on between them.

I hear Piper ask what they should call it and that's when I decided to let my presence known.

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Sorry this chapter sucks. But didn't really have a lot of time and was kinda rushed. Hope y'all like it anyway. Thank you!!