Halo x Reader's

Buck X Suicidal FemODST Reader

A/N Not requested yet again but can i just say buck is amazing

Am I a psycho, primarily
Me and the murderers got similarities
They trying to fix me with therapy
Even psychiatrists tend to get scared of me
So if you think I'm one of those people that really lost they mind
You might be right
I ain't got a clue how to fit in with the human kind

Y/n was trapped inside her mind, horrible thoughts flooding in at any given moment, it was a problem she had. UNSC doctors and psychiatrists trying to help her but nothing seemed to work, as all pills did was numb her brain. The thoughts where mainly about depression but also about old events in her life as a ODST.

Buck. He was Y/n closest supporter, and friend. He was primarily worried if Y/n would...well commit and take her last dying breath. He decided to pay his old friend a visit and well, tell her how he really felt about her, before he lost his chance. He knocked on Y/N's door "Y/N? Can you open up? I got somethin' to tell you, i mean if you don't mind" He said nervously.

Two minutes passed and buck got worried and pressed his ear up against the door. He heard the faint sound of water running and sobbing, that's when his heart stopped. He barged into the room and rushed the the bathroom attached to her room. He swung the door open and what he saw..was heartbreaking.

Y/n sat there leaned against the tub crying, blood gushing out of cuts out of her arms, a bloody knife  in the sink, bloody slowly washing off of it as the water fell onto it. Buck ran up to Y/n stunned at the scene, emotions running at him like a bull, his heart felt like it was shot and it was taking its last beats. Tears formed in the corners of his eyes as he rushed to grabbed a rag and he quickly wet it and went back to Y/n, who's breath was slowing down. "Y-y/n...why...?...." He said as he tried to wipe her cuts, which as the blood was whipped off, revealed not only the cuts but original cuts that were slowly trying to heal and then near her shoulder were scars of much older cuts. The sight of the cuts saddened him even more, but it wasn't long till Y/n started to slowly close her eyes, her eye lids heavy. "B-buck..." She muttered through quiet sobs. "C-come on Y/n!...i-ill help you! J-just hold on...please..it will all be better..r-right? Y/n..?" He said as tears rolled down his face. Y/n closed her eyes and she passed out due to blood lose. Buck tried to stay calm as he grabbed bandages and wrapped her arms up to at least stop the bleeding for now. He picked her up quickly, his left arm under her legs and his right supporting her back, her head leaning against his chest, her breathing was unsteady, but so was bucks as he cried. He rushed to the infirmary, holding onto Y/n for dear life. "C-come on Y/n...just...hold on...you'll make it...i-ill be able to tell you how i feel...i'll be able to hold you to my last dying breath..." He was worried he would be able to see Y/n ever again, never comfort her, never hug her small figure, never fight along side her against the demons inside her head...

Buck barged into the infirmary, "H-Help! Please! Y/n! She needs help!" He said in between sobs. Doctors saw Y/n in his arms, her bandages turning red rather quickly. The doctors quickly took her from buck and took her to another room, buck tried following then but one of them stopped him "Sir im sorry but you need to wait in the waiting room" the doctor said, buck looked at them "N-no! Im going in there!" He said firmly. Soon two field medics grabbed him by the arms and managed to pulled the tall heartbroken Spartan away and force him to sit down in the waiting room. Buck knew it wouldn't help him to fight and try and see Y/n but he hoped Y/n was fighting as much as she could to make it through this.

A few painfully long hours a doctor went up to buck who had stayed in the waiting room the whole time, refusing to rest. "Sir, you can see Y/n now, but she's resting now. So we'd prefer it i-" buck stood up quickly and pushed past the doctor and he went to the room that held Y/n. Her fragile body laying on the medical bed, her arms covered in stitches. Buck bit his lip, holding back tears "i...i could have prevented this...if i just...." He sighed, he looked at Y/n's face, he grazed the side of her face with his gloved hand "im sorry Y/n..." He sat down in a chair by the bed and he looked at the ground, thoughts racing through his mind.

"B-buck....?"

Buck quickly looked at Y/n, she fought against the urge to rest and kept her eyes open. Buck sat up straight, "Y-y/n..y-your okay!.." He said relieved as hell. Y/n tried sitting but but buck's protective caring instincts kicked in and he stood up and gently laid her back down "i don't know what your thinking but you laying down and resting..you need it" he said as Y/n shook her head slowly "f-fin...e...can i at least get a hug?..." She said opening her arms slightly. Buck hesitated, he dint want to accidentally hurt her till y/n glared at him "give m-me a hug damn it!" She growled. Buck almost instantly hugged her, even if she was hurt y/n could probably still find a way to beat his ass. Which he was right so he was rather lucky he hugged her pretty quickly. He held her close to him, scared to let go of her and scared to hurt her if her held her to tight. Y/n hugged him back, careful not to stretch her arms to much and rip the stitches. Buck ran his hand through her soft hair "holy you hair is so fucking soft..." He muttered. Y/n laughed at his goofy comment, but he wasn't lying, her hair was very soft. He let go of her, not by choice of course, "im sorry i..it was just so fluffy like, not even my hair isn't that fluffy! And if i have to admit it im fairly jealous" he said with a slight frown as he ran a hand through his hair. Y/n shook her head slowly, smirking "your a fucking stupid idiot buck.." Buck looked at her and shrugged "oh well, but i'd like it of you'd tell me your little secrets on how to get fluffy hair, because i need that in my life, Now." That wasn't really the only thing he needed in his life, the other thing?

Well that was You, and you alone, your smile, your personality, your everything..